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My gastric bypass was 2 weeks ago so I haven't had a chance for regrets. I am writing to let you know that I too had a Nissen about 10 years ago. It helped a little since my GERD was so bad that I literally had acid burn in my mouth. Over the years the problem has returned to its original state. With the bypass, my surgeon said the Nissen had come apart so he did away with it. What? I am still in panic mode though he said he took measures to disable the nerve that activates acid secretion. Yeah, I know, I don't get it either but my husband says there are no longer any protons to inhibit with acid blockers. I will keep asking the surgeon to explain it until I finally get it. The surgeon said I will have the reflux for about a week and its been two. I don't know the difference in reflux and food backing up due to overeating. Due to the Nissen I could only have a gastric bypass, none of the other lesser procedures. It sounds like the Nissen would have been required regardless of the WLS. Mine was. I understand your frustration and pain. I was so happy when they told me they could fix my GERD that I literally cried and to be honest, any relief was a plus. I support you.

I like this quote: "You are so much more than what a mirror can show you. You are made of a million different things that make you deserving of love, a mirror can only show you one of them."

I won't miss: Bragging about my weight loss and reveling in the compliments, then gaining it all back so that the next time I brag, I get silence or boredom. I won't miss being afraid of falling down and not being able to get back up. I won't miss falling down and having people panic that I won't be able to get back up. Struggling to get back up. Making excuses for my weight. Making inane jokes about my weight to cover my lack of confidence. Having people comment on how much or what I am eating. The feeling that people won't or don't like me because of my weight (internalized too much crap I read in my teens and early adulthood). Guilt! Having my cat knead my stomach for comfort. Having children tell me I'm fat. Don't people teach their kids discretion? Thanks for the topic, happy to be here.