LeslieR041906

Ive followed this girl, shes done really good progress. Maybe she learned from her mistake. But, Good info on as to why we dont have carbonated drink. Every now and then I would want a coke, but I havent had soda in 2 months. Im so proud.

Well as it states, I did see my doctor today. For those of you who read my previous posts, about me cheating, well, he was upset with me, but, he encouraged me, enough to start anew with no regrets, he also took tests to see if any current damages were done. And good to know none were done. Im back on track and back on the mushy diet. And will be for 3 weeks. However, there is a down side to this, I gained 6lbs, but, I feel that a lot of this is water, since Im so close to my monthly. And usually I retain a lot of water. But, IM ok guys, he really wanted me to follow the rules to a t. And I am. No more cheating, and lots and lots of chewing. Tonight, I had, green beans mushed up, kinda good, had, soft pasta salad, tuna salad 1 scoop. And surprisingly, I was full after chewing for so long. I just have to fight the hunger that Im having right now, and Im doing that with more protein. I had my 2 protein shakes today. And had yogart with protein in it. It was filling. And lots and lots of water. Today, I felt tired. But, I did walk, move around a bit at work, and tried to stay active. Im very happy with myself. One day at a time, Im going to do this. I will have my first fill on the 23rd. My doctor told me that it was totally normal to gain weight, and I didnt gain a lot, since most is water. Im laying off high sodium too. Any suggestions for foods on this mushy stage is welcome. I bought a book about weight loss surgery, and in it, there is a cook book for life. Maybe I will take some time, to look at a few of the recipes. But, please let me know of some good MUSHY foods, I would so appreciate it. Thanks all for sticking with me.

Im going to call the office again, just to see if the nurse will talk to me. I know she will tell me to go to the er. I will keep you guys posted.

This is really weird for me, all I drink is Water, and now, when I drink it, I end up with gerd. I can swallow it ok, but I drink it I have really bad gerd. This happened today, and last night. I really drink all the time. I didnt start this until the McDonalds incident.

Girl, someone needs to tell me off.. and I wouldnt blame you. Cause what I did was horrible, and I had no excuse to do it. Only trying to get into bad habits. My little girl is my world and my light. Shes always there to make me happy when Im upset. I have to live for her. For all she has done for me. I have to do this for myself, and her, so that I can live longer. Thanks for your response. Its good to know that there are people out there that can relate. Makes it easier sometimes, to understand that what I have been doing is wrong just by others advice. I thank you and everyone.

Thank you. Im just really worried I done something. I ate a mushie today, and was nauseated. Im really worried. I dont know if maybe its something that my tummy has to get used to or what. But, there is a certain mixture of nausea and gerd. :tt2:

I believe that doctors should make people aware of what they are getting into. That if you cheat this could happen. I will talk to my doc about it, and just see what he says. I remember that when I went for my check up, he told me to stick with the mushies, but, he also said he thinks that I could handle solids, but he would prefer me to stick with the stages, for healing, to be sure I heal properly. Well see what he says. Thanks for the information you sent, Im sure it will be useful.

Thank you. At first I thought it was great, that I had it under control. But, it is harder at first than I figured. Thank you again!!

Wow, guys thanks. Im glad to see that Im not alone, but everyone is right I have to do this for myself. Today, Im back on liquids. Already, my stomach is growling, but Im going to fight it. Im going to let my stomach rest. I tried calling my doc, and unfortunately, theyre not there, and the emergency line told me if Im not tolerating liquids, or Im hurting then go to the er. Which, Im not hurting, and I can tolerate liquids. So, Unfortunately, I will have to wait til monday. I mean I can go to the er, but its so expensive. and right now, money is tight. Otherwise I would do it. Thanks for all the advice, but I feel bad about the other day. The wrap I had, I didnt chew properly, and stupid me I acted like I was never banded. It hurt going down. I know there is no excuse for it, but I was so nauseated, and I felt that I had to do it. One, I did feel guilty and I felt it would be a quick relief. The day before I had gone and bought a new blouse, it was a size smaller. And it looked great on me, EVERYONE at work, told me I was losing. But, after I ate, I looked bloated and bigger. Thats when the guilt came in. Anyway, heres what I do on most days, if food isnt an issue. Especially weekdays when Im working. I have 2 EAS Protein shakes, 42 grams of protein, and 300 cal each. So there is my protein, then I drink all the Water I can. If I get hungry, I eat sugar free, Jello or pudding, kinda like Im following the liquid diet. Then when I go home, I have a small meal, I dont over eat, I eat til Im satisfied. Usually bake fish, chicken, have Pasta, along with soft veggies. For a snack, I would usually get low fat ritz, and light tuna, with light mayo, and have a couple crackers, it calms a lot of cravings. So, the things I cheated with, well they come on the weekends. Which shouldnt be the case, but weekends, I have my family around, and they are eating, and I want the same thing they are eating, I fight it, and try, but sometimes, I lose. I used to chew chew and chew. But now, I find it hard to do. I dont know why, but I do need to get right back on that wagon. coltonwade!! Thanks for being straigt forward with me. Sometimes, the truth is the best advice. Hopefully it will knock some sense into me. That is a great way to to avoid cheating. Thinking about your band being ripped out. That scares me. Youre right I may have done damage. Im just praying that I didnt do much and I can recover from this. And I will tell my doc everything. Even though he will yell at me, I hope he does, cause it could be the only way, I can help myself. As far as my daughters eating habits, I wish I could learn from her. She doesnt eat meat, she a little veggie lover, and fruit lover. She rarely eats junk, anything fried she wont eat. I know my eating habits were great when I was pregnant. But, didnt think she would learn from them. LOL. All I craved was salad and fruit, any and all meat made me sick. Good thing I was taking my prenatals, and shes now taking finstones. Gosh before I was banded, I would eat crap from McDonalds, and you would think that kids love McDonalds, not her. I would give her a fry, and she wouldnt eat it. Shes 2 and I only pray she keeps these habits for a while. I dont want her to be like me. I dont want her to struggle with weight all her life. She deserves so much more. My goal, next year I want to be thinner to take her to the local theme park. I want to ride the kiddie rides with her. Last year I was about 320 and I got on 1 ride and thought I was going to die.. And other rides I embarrased myself by not being able to ride. I hate it. Sorry to digress, but, I had to talk about some things. I didnt mean to tell my life story. All in all I am greatful for all of your responses. Thank you. I will get back on the right track, I will make myself. and I promise. Thank you again.

I know that with this thread, I will be told what I already know, this is the time for my band to heal. Well, my question is, after all I have done, can I reverse it somehow? Possibly go on liquids, again, then work back up to mushies? It started, about a week ago when I was allowed to eat Mushies. Now, I feel it could be out of control. I eat soft Pasta, I still have my Protein shakes, but, I do sneak in icecream, fried chicken, mind you once. Problem is, YES I have hurt myself, cause, now, Im suffering from gerd. I was doing so well, but I got right back into the eating habit. I havent gained, but I dont care to be honest, I just dont want to hurt my band. I want to start over, come clean with what I have done, and try to do this the right way. I have a docs appt on monday, to see if everything is ok. Im going to confess to him what has happened. Biggest problem, Im full, yet I want more. Just as it was before. WHAT SHOULD I DO ABOUT THIS? I get my first fill on the 23rd of this month. I was ready for this, but, temptation is killing me. How do I seperate it. Having a band wasnt really something i wanted cosmetic. It was something I had to do for myself, to keep living for my 2 year old daughter. Im not a good example. And I want to do right, and treat my band with the upmost care. It wasnt hard for me to get the band, and it honestly cost me nothing, I notice others going through hell to get it. And here I am abusing it. I feel selfish, and I dont want this guilt. HOW can I start over. I know that I could have done damage. I know that there are stages for a reason. But, I let this happen, and I want to change it. Hopefully this is enough to help me this soon into my healing process. I want to know should I go on full liquids for a week or 2. What should I do? I know my doc will tell me. I so hate food. I want to let people in on a secret. And I know by sharing this, I will get all sorts of opinions, the other day, I went out and had fast food, I got a wrap, and it hurt after I ate it. Along with the guilt, the pain was too much for me. So I tried to vomit it back up. And then, I hurt. Trying to vomit wasnt good. I should have never done it. Since then I havent been the same. No one knows this, and its my guilt that I have to live with. I hate what I done. I wanted to go into this doing it right. Im litterally in tears, cause of what I have done, and I know right from wrong. I was ready for this band and I am still. Cause, I dont want to die. I dont want to leave my little girl. I want to see her grow up. Before the band, my bp was high having it just for this month has dramatically improved it. I think that I was depressed again, but I dont want to make excuses, my mom was just diagnosed with Lupus, and I just found out that every woman in my family had it. And I already have Joint problems, back problems, etc. Im scared to death that if I dont change now, I will die way before my time. This should be the only motivation I need. But why cant I look at it, that way when food temps me? I hate it. Im sorry for ranting and Im sure that this will make people mad. But, I just need some advice, so that I can start over. I need opinions, as to if they believe its not too late to start over. I was banded a month ago, and already to a bad start. I thought I had support here at home, but I dont, but I know that the support must first come from within. I would appreciate any and all help. Thank you for reading.

The paper cup idea is great. I should try that. But I can tell you that Im not chewing good. If I can honestly master that, Im sure that by eating correctly, I will get fuller faster, and there will be no gerd, and I wouldnt over stuff myself. I admit, I have cheated 3 times, and I regret it, but, I was very careful, and I ate, in moderations, but, it wasnt something Im proud of. It was very easy for me to get the band, and I guess my brain hasnt recognized it. There are so many people fighting to get it, and here i am doing this. Im selfish. But, I can always change that. And I will. Im going to learn how to eat properly. Chew chew chew. Its truely the only way. I lost 26 all together. I lost the majority on the liquid diet. I dont want to gain it back. Thats what Im afraid of. I dont want to ruin this. I need to keep my therapy appointments etc. Just trying to figure out why food is so irresistable to me. Its horrible having cravings. Anyway, I dont mean to rant. But, thank you for your advice. I will definately keep that in mind.

I have been cheating, I dont like it and I wish that I could start over. Its horrible knowing that you could have done something to your band.

Ok, here I am eating mushies, etc, but still I havent had my first fill, yet, I dont feel much restriction anymore, and I tend to over eat, and get gerd feeling. How do you know when enough is enough. How do you know that youre not chewing your food good? Could this be a result of my gerd feeling? Anyway, Im just wondering if my band is still in the same place. I have to go in for a examination on Monday. We will see. I dont think that Im chewing my food like Im supposed to, but sometimes its hard. I guess I have to get used to this new thing. Anyone have any other experiences such as this? Did they have a problem by not stopping from eating? I need to know. I dont want to be alone in this.

Well almost a year ago I was going to a weight doctor, they put me on Phentramene, and the HCG pregnancy hormone shot, but prior to that they tested my metabolism, which, they said it was normal. So, you would think that with all the diets Ive tried, why havent I had success? I didnt eat a lot. Dunno. But, have any of you ever had your metabolism tested? If so what were the results, mine was of course as I said before NORMAL...

You may be nauseated, but, I dont hear much on vomiting. Not once did I vomit. And I was banded on 6/09/08. Think that its harder once you get banded. I dont know.

Im not hurting today, so I said to myself, if I was hurting today, then i would talk to my surgeon, but, I feel fine today. I think it was a stomach bug that did it. Both my husband and me seem fine today, as for the ab lounge, Im stopping with that for now. When I go for my first fill I will ask him then, what I can and can not do. I guess for now, I sticking with walking. I was worried but, Im ok now. I can drink fluids ok, I havent eaten anything, well of course I dont eat during the day, I have my protein drinks. I will know tonight. Thanks all for being concerned. I was too. :thumbup:

Im worried now, Im still really nauseated. I took a pain med, in hopes that I would feel better. Ate some mushies. couldnt finish all of it. Weird thing is, My husband, had a stomach bug to start last night. Im wondering if maybe I have some of it too. I dont know, I just think that I did something WAY too soon. I will call in the morning and let everyone know what he says. Thanks guys for the responses, I just feel horrible. There is pulling feeling, not major pain, but, some, right there near my band. Well see what he says. Think until then, Im back to full liquids, I dont want even think about food, even if it is mushies.

Ok, for the past few weeks since surgery, I have been feeling really well, so last night, I worked out on my AB Lounge. I did 60 on it, and right after, maybe no longer than 30 mins after I started getting nauseated, all night long, and woke up with it. I didnt go to work cause I was so nauseated. Also I have a pulling pain near my band. Could I have done something? My doc said it was ok, to work out on the AB Lounge, do you think its possible it was too soon? I need to know, cause I dont feel too well.

I had to take a week and a half off, it just depends on how you feel and what your doctor says, definately take it easy if you do return early. Dont lift heavy things, and try to keep moving to keep the gas pain down. Be careful.

I know I can... And I am. Its just been too many years of depression, eating, depression and eating, that I have relied on. And, to be honest, the first 2 weeks was hard, but I did it. I didnt cheat not once. Im not trying to make excuses, but, it does stem from that. And I havent learned to let go. I will do this. Im not going to try, Im going to do.

Oh speaking of getting stuck. Last night, I had a small dinner, veggies, and salmon baked. Well I chewed, and chewed, but I swear that fish was stuck in my throat. I thought I was going to die, and Im able to eat that stuff. Uggh. Whats up with that? I wasnt eating too fast. Dunno what happened there.

My doc says, for when I "DO" eat solids, I can go on something like South Beach. Its healthy, and you benefit from good carbs rather bad, while watching your fat, sugar, and calorie intake. However, I cant say much, cause, Im 3 weeks out and are already breaking rules by eating.

My port is about an inch and a half above my belly button. And it doesnt hurt. Im so sorry about your port location. I cant imagine going through that. Perhaps you can get him to move it, if it honestly bothers you to the point youre in pain all the time.

Im going on week 3 post surgery. Today, I ate, I didnt feel bad, I had for lunch 2 pieces of pizza, yeah I know, Im going to hurt myself. I knew this, but I didnt hurt, and I was satisfied. However, pizza isnt appealing to me anymore. It doesnt taste the same. Then tonight, I went to on the border, had half a chimichanga couldnt eat much more, and was stuffed. Today, I wanted to splurge, I have been eating semi solids, for a week now. And are still losing weight. Today, was a different day for me. I have decided to make a pact with myself, Once a month I will treat myself. Once a month. But with care. However, I feel guilty. I feel like I NEED to get back on track. I feel like I committed infidelity to my diet. UGGGGH. But, Im still ok with it. I know that this is the time for healing. My doc especially told me that I need to eat mushy, but I chew and chew and chew to the point its mush. I cant say that everyone can do this, Im just saying this is whats happening to me at the moment. I know I should be more careful. Which I am. I dont eat to the point I want to blow up. I eat, until Im satisfied. And that means, going to bed at night hungry, when before, I was used to eating before bed. Its hard trying to break that habit, especially when you hurt from hunger pains. But, I think that within that month, 2 weeks prior to the surgery, and even after, Ive done well. So, I feel that I should treat myself once a month, Especially since Ive lost 26 lbs in a month. Ok, maybe Im not making any sense. Thats ok. I just want to vent. I do feel guilty, but, I feel I deserve a night to myself. And I feel everyone does. Tomorrow, will be back to morning and afternoon liquids, with a small dinner. And GYM GYM GYM. Gotta burn all this off. LOL.

Im not sure if this is so, but I did hear that there was a recall on that drug, heprin? May want to check it out. They gave it to me too, left a huge bruise on me, I mean huge, bigger than a grapefruit. And looked awlful. But, after my surgery, I heard there was a recall. Maybe I am wrong. But worth looking into, they said it wasnt working and was giving people clots, and death. Thanks for the heads up. People on here should be aware.