losingthepast

I am 4 weeks post op and just starting soft foods. I feel like it’s so vague and I hate that I can’t just get a structure for this but instead have to figure out what works for me. I feel like a fish out of water and that I don’t know what to have. I dont know why I’m so confused by that? my period is a week late and I’ve been spotting and extremely hormonal but it’s not here yet. I have random thoughts running through my kind of regret. It’s not really regret it’s just more that I’m just feeling not confident and unsure and wonder how long that will last for and hoping it’s not just forever. I’m still on anti nausea meds because I get it everyday. am I normal? Do people have these struggles and worries? I have good moments where I can start to see my weightless which is exciting but everything seems so hard right now with a constant fight to get protein in.

Ohhhh I’m day 4 pre-op diet and booked in for April 18th. Yay starting weight before pre-op was 138kg GW ??? I don’t know! How do people decide this?