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Thank you @Navigating the Wilderness for the book suggestions! Downloaded and ready!

Thank you for that @ReneK Not mean at all, I appreciate the matter of fact speak. I'm not one to beat around the bush, so I appreciate the frank talk. You're right, it's not worth it. I did this for my babies, so their mom could be around to help raise them! Thank you!

@Thejeweledsleeve that killed me! How funny! I felt EXACTLY like Gollum! That's a great comparison. Thank you all for the great words of advice. You are helping so much!

Had the SIPS procedure last Friday (3/17). Everything on my Facebook feed screams "food!" We have family helping us out and they brought my boys some pizza for supper. The smell was almost too much, I wanted a piece so badly! Then I got angry thinking "What have I done with myself? I have taken away this wonderful thing called stuffing my face" I know it sounds horrid. I know I needed to change. But that monster reared it's ugly head and then I started thinking of how much I would love McDonald's, and pork rinds, and all these things I want right now. Which I wouldn't eat. But I felt angry, and sad, and irritated that I couldn't just eat what I wanted right then. What the heck is wrong with me? Is this head hunger?

@@WLSResources/ClothingExch you are so right. I overthink everything! Thank you for the words of advice.

Thank you! I appreciate the support! I hate that I get in the way of what I know needs to be done. Good luck to you too!

Hi everyone, I had lapband surgery in 2009, and then it was removed in 2012. I had a huge issue with my gallbladder, which caused pancreatitis. I was in the hospital for a week, and also had been having complications with my band. The doctor at the time recommended that we take my band out, and do a revision. I feel like such a baby, I didn't feel like I was ready for a revision. I wish now I had done it. Fast forward to 2017, and I have gained all the weight back I lost with my band. I turn 41 this month and have mild hypertension. I can't seem to get the weight off, I will do really well for a bit, and then gain it all back again. I remember when I had my band, I went through a depression, because I had made food such an important part of my life. It was a friend whose relationship with me was changed drastically. I suppose that's what I fear, feeling down and depressed. Or having complications with the surgery. I've heard such horror stories. Gah! Tell me it's worth it. I'm 5'5" and weigh 302 pounds. I have four babies, I want to live to watch them grow up. My fear is holding me back a little bit. Part of me is determined to do whatever it takes. I just need to convince the other part.