DaphneZ

I'm in specific treatment for my eating disorder, it was the first condition for being allowed in the surgery program, its hard but I know it will be worth it in the end. Thanks for the tip anyway

I had a big boost in motivation today, I have a few days of work and went to a zoo, something I really enjoy. After not even seeing half of the park I was so exhausted that I had to choose what animals I really wanted to see because I wasnt able to visit all of them. I'm so angry for letting myself get so far, but if I have to pick the biggest reason for doing the surgery its for being able to do normal stuff like this, getting my condition back.

Pfff, had a bad day today, I ate everything I could find... Now I feel like I should give up and that I'm not strong enough to work on my binging. I hope i get some new motivation tomorrow

So I'm at the very start of this, I had an intake with a nurse, dietician an psych. Because I have some psych problems they decided to put me in a 3 month trail where I have to prove that I'm able to lower my amount of binges without relapsing in Other destructive behavior. Im at 1 month now and its been really hard (tbh quitting smoking was easier than this), but I'm managing. One step at a time. My next appointments are at the beginning of August, i'll talk to the dietician and psych again and 23/8 I have an appointment with the endocrinologist (secretly hoping I'll get a go then ). Ill keep you guys up to date Starting weight: 150,4 kg or 331,5 lbs Current: 142,0 kg or 313 lbs Lost: 8,4 kg or 16,5 lbs Not really a difference, but I have to start somewhere Ps.: sorry for my broken english, I hope you guys understand...