I am in the same boat with you, lovestohike. Am feeling a bit lost and overwhelmed with all the time I have before surgery (it looks to be October/November/December, at this point - I can't get in to see the psych until late September, otherwise I'd meet my insurance requirements in August). I tell myself I'm good, that it's not that long a time, etc. I am doing pretty well with eating/measuring/etc. and have replaced 1 meal with a Protein shake already.
But it feels like I am just going through the motions. I don't have a lot of hope at the moment that I will get this weight off for good. I've done this so,so many times - my first structured weight loss attempt was when I was 14 years old. I will be 50 in October. I've more or less been this weight since I had my second child twenty years ago.
I don't really know where I was going with this thought, just that I am feeling bleh and not very hopeful right now.