Reading this made me tear up because it was the exact same thoughts I had.. It does get a little easier but it's tough it's a long process.. I know I have been like this many years so it will take time to recover to my goal ( that's what I keep telling my self) it helps sometimes.. I hope you keep doing great
I had the my surgery the same day and your are right the first week and even the second i was just dropping like crazy but i have been on a stall for about a week now... i posted on another topic about this and a lot of people say its normal.. but it does get frustrating with the food and the stall sometimes i feel like i'm doing something wrong and my anxiety comes out and i'm scared of gaining weight.. but hang in there you're not alone and its a long process.. that's what i keep telling myself..
I had mine done on Nov 9th and I'm not regretting it all together but i have had a little bit of remorse as to having this done right before the Holidays.. Thanksgiving was tough and i cant imagine Christmas time.. I am getting bored of food i don't know what to eat anymore.. I'm down about 30lbs but i have been at a stall for like a week now..