Thank you I really appreciate that. Its funny I had quit smoking a month early and he was continuing to smoke like right in front of me and then I found out that my blood pressure was really high and my heart rate so I wanted to get cardiac clearance here in the United States. So I started smoking again and quit taking Chantix and my blood pressure went down to normal but my heart rate didn't so I'll find out on Tuesday if I am healthy enough for surgery and I'll have to reschedule for December or January and now that I bought a car last night. I've been really super bummed about starting smoking again and just my whole plan and getting thrown off I feel like I'm back in the same but I was in previously when he left me