NoMoreFatGuy

The shame is external, not internal. It's the way people make me feel about being fat. Even my family is shaming me for "not having the strength to do it on my own".

The ignorance about the struggle with obesity is so frustrating. It is one reason I am so ashamed. My own family is telling me I am crazy and just need to learn to exercise and eat better. What is funny is if somebody goes in for surgery for a knee replacement they don't tell them, well you just need to walk on it more carefully and wear better supports for it. Yet somehow, fat shaming is appropriate when someone chooses a medical solution. It is sad and infuriating.

I go in to the doc Monday to do preop and get my preop liquid diet food. Surgery is March 30th. I am scared, ashamed, excited and worried all at the same time. For 6 months I have known without doubt this is what I want and need. Now I am questioning myself for the first time. I am going to read through the board for support but this is the single most monumental change ever in my life and I have had some big changes in my life.