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Hi ladies. Not much going on today. Did 45 mins of wii aerobics. I ran for 20 mins in 5 minute runs. Big news is .... I RAN!!!! I wanted to die each time...but I stuck it out each time and clicked retry each time instead of quit.... The step aerobics was getting a little better. I tried the second game that was unlocked but haven't tried the next one. I am very uncoordinated I can tell you. Went out for fish tonight but it was crappy. The service sucked and we waited 2 hours for a crappy meal. It was very discouraging....but it saved my calories I guess. I'll be on tomorrow to chat with you all but tonight I think it's a good night to just crawl into bed. Have a nice night ladies....you're probably in bed anyways.....sleep well.

Hi ladies. ... I hope all is going well with you all. I'm getting into this routine of being a SAHM. It is very different. In the past I have said, "this is summer vacation, I'm going to enjoy it! I've earned it!" Now I can't say it's summer vacation. I have to just get "in the groove." I can definitely say I'm out of mommy shape. Each day is getting a little easier, but I have been napping in the afternoons because I'm so exhausted. I need to stop that but they just wear me out! Today we went to the park this morning and tonight I mowed the lawn. Besides lawn work this evening I think I cleaned the living room 3 times and did dishes twice. How in the world do they get everything so messy???? Phyl, enjoy those new grandbabies. How wonderful! And I hope you super enjoy your wale watching. I've never seen wales...or even been out on the ocean that I can remember. I'm probably lying, but not on purpose..... Janet, those compliments must have been soooo awesome. I can't wait to finally see someone who blew me off as a fatty one of these days and just blow their minds! I know it's not the same, but I assume the feeling would be similar. Karri, I love your news! I'm so impressed. And to get a free professional shoot! A definite triple plus. If that was your only great news it would have been awesome! But all of it adds up to a great great day! Going to watch tv with my dh and relax. I'll talk to you all later. Have a great night.

When I took a weight training class a couple of years ago we did 3 "core" exercises but I can only remember one, called "good mornings" I'll have to look deeper. I remember they really helped my lower back when I was doing them a bit. I need to do something for my abs. I've had 3 c-sections and they are just sooooo weak. I know if they were stronger my back wouldn't have nearly the struggles. I agree on the crunches though. I am soooo bad at them. I need to get back on my total gym. I just never seem to get to the basement. I wish there was somewhere for me to set it up upstairs. Oh well.... Denise, I don't think you should be given duct tape EVER!!!! I'll remember to hide mine if I ever see you. Holey CATS!!!! I need to go get a few phone calls done. I'll see you ladies later.

Holey cats you guys!!! I'm gone and you all just go nuts posting!!! Let's see if I can remember what everyone said.... Linda?? I think you were thinking of shower ideas. I loved the shower my work gave me. They did a tupperware party. Maybe something like that or pampered chef or home interiors. Whatever would make her house more homey for her. We didn't do party games....I'm not that kind of gal. I enjoyed that a lot. Denise, when I went to my last nutritional class the nut said something that made me really rethink plateaus. She said that studies are beginning to show that they are actually benificial in some ways. There is a school of thought that our bodies have set points. Places where they are comfortable being weight wise. She says that when you plateau your body sets itself a new setpoint and that it allows our bodies to get more settled. It's a way of getting out of the yoyo diet scheme and works. Very interesting I thought. Karri, I know it's got to be frustrating to have to run all that way just to get a sign off. I'd be grumbling the whole way...but there are those benefits because of the family time. Enjoy those. And a day off work, though I always thought those were worse to prep for than being there would be. Ruby, I envy you a trainer. I know it is expensive but I haven't heard anyone complain that they wasted their money on one. Maybe just a month's worth to get you on track and get into the routine. I kow it's a lot of money though....I'd be hard pressed to spend it. Good luck with your decision. Okay. The last few days have been very long and I'm going to call it naptime for a half hour or so. I'll talk to you all again soon.

I am beginning to stand up for myself. For so long whenever something was wrong I just let it go and grumbled about it to dh later. The other day a teacher talked really nastily to my son and I made it a point to tell her that I thought it was inappropriate. When another person grew a little too big for their britches talking to me like I wasn't good enough, I set them directly in their place. The new self confidence and the feeling that I AM worth it is amazing. I think that's the best NSV and most remarkable change. Who knew that I would start to feel worthy by losing some weight. Amazing.

Way to go!!!! I'm sure your legs are exhausted! Those are amazing times. Under 10 minute miles! You just keep beating your challenges. You give yourself a goal and BAM!! you've conquered it. I'm so impressed at how hard you work at beating your challenges. I wish I had half the gumption you do. Anyways....congrats! Enjoy your victory.

Okay...I combined my 4 piles into one....and got all the laundry in the right pile. I'll go through it all day after tomorrow. Tomorrow I have to drive eldest quack to the child psych.....4 hours one way. So tomorrow won't work. But Tuesday I will go through all clothes and make a list of everything I have and let you all know. I honestly don't know what I have of what sizes. It would be awesome if some of you could use them. Dh and I went for a walk but it was short so I won't count as a session. Tomorrow morning I plan on getting up early and going for a long one before we leave for appointment. Tonight dh and I are going to sit and watch some of our tivo'd stuff. It sure was a great weekend. I'll be around on and off tonight. I'm sure I'll think of something more to say before bed. Oh...dh just asked me to go to the drive in....so maybe not. It never gets done until midnight....so we'll see

Okay...confessions....this is extremely ugly. If you have a weak stomach you may not want to read further. It could be terribly heartbreaking. If you want to sleep without nightmares....turn back now. Okay...background. I was asked a couple of months ago to be a part of a 2 week workshop of math teachers across the state. It requires that I spend 10 days out at a lake....cabin shared with 3 others, workshop from 9-5 and then the evenings just to relax by the water.....I know...it's going to be the worst time I've ever spent! Anyways....DH says he doesn't care on two conditions. 1. I have to find something to do with the miniature quacks and 2. I have to clean my room before I go. The ANIMAL!! How dare he put that kind of pressure on me! Okay, so my family has agreed to watch the kids while I'm stuck hating the lakeside. Thank goodness they don't have to go through that torture. I've been putting off the bedroom though. I must warn you all now.....I feel obligated...this is about to get icky!!!! Well....in case you've not gotten the idea in the last couple months....I'm a bit of a clothes horse. Others may say something a little less flattering but let's go with clothes horse. Now for some reason when it comes to my bedroom I am still a 15 year old girl who is in complete rebellion. You can't make me clean it! This is MY room. You would think I still lived with my mother. The rest of my house is pretty well organized...for having 3 quacks....but my bedroom is a complete hell hole. So....I've been putting it off. So now I go in there and start on the first pile of stuff. I have 3 major piles. Almost everything is clean, just not put away. There is my stuff, LG's stuff, and LB's stuff. It honestly IS NOT ALL MINE!!! Okay....90% is. I admit it! My name is Stephanie and I'm a clothesaholic. I have thought of joining a 10 step program....but I guess I haven't hit bottom yet. Anyways....who has this many clothes???? Ummm...and worse....who has this many clothes, lives in the middle of nowhere with no one to impress, and complains she doesn't have anything to wear??????? I'm sick! Very sick. I'd like to say it was a transfer addiction, but I have complete wardrobes in 20's, 18's, 16's, 14's, and now starting in 12's. I could honestly start a thrift shop with just my clothes. Okay...so...I've confessed. If I haven't come back in a couple of hours please call my house and see if I can come to the phone. If there is no answer send in a search party. I may have been avalanched. Oh.....and does anyone else want to take me up on the offer I gave Phyl? I need to do something with these clothes!!!!!

I get a terrible rash on my chest, arms and back if I'm out in the sun without sunscreen. I tried to find what my doctor called it but can't. I will tell you when I went to my dr. the first time and she said I was allergic to the sun I thought she was full of crap. Who is allergic to the sun???? So I then went to a well respected dermatologist in a different city the next summer that it happened and when he walked in he said, "Wow, I've never seen anyone with a worse sun allergy." I hadn't even mentioned that I had seen anyone else for it. He gave me the same treatment and the same words of advice. So I guess she wasn't crazy. My local doc gives me a shot each year of steroids and that seems to help. I did a search on google and found PMLE. This sounds and looks like what happens to me, but the name doesn't sound right. I'm going in next week for my yearly shot, but it happens every summer and there are always 2 weeks of hell from it. It gets worse if I sweat or become overheated. I've been lucky so far this year. Just thought I'd share that to see if it helps you.

Wow!!! Has everyone just been crazy busy or when I hit submit is this one going to die again on me? I hope it's crazy busy. It was a beautiful day so I'm really hoping it was wonderful for you. I had a pretty good day. I did take a nice walk today with DH. It's great that he would walk with me again today. And then he and the oldest quack went out to the drive-in and left me with the younger two. So I watched a couple of Big Medicine's that I had recorded and then did 40 mins of wii fit. My age is still 46 which stinks, but it is late so maybe earlier it would be better. I can't believe I was exercising at 10pm. How insane is that? But I think I will sleep better. And since we walked and I fitted, I made my exercise goal....and with an hour to spare ! I'm going to stick with the same goal for next month. When I'm at the lake for 10 days I hope to do a morning walk and maybe an evening kayak or another walk. I'm really looking forward to the time at the lake. The people who are going to be there with me don't know I had surgery and know nothing about my weight loss. Last time I was there I tried to do the walks but there was no way I was going very far. Im not going to let anything stop me this year!!!:laugh: Well...everyone should be here soon and it's time to go to bed. I'll see you all tomorrow at sometime. I am cooking dinner at church tomorrow. I've made broc/cauliflower salad, creamed cukes, and tomorrow I'm going to make fruit salad as well as some low sugar dessert. I found the recipe in a cook book. I'm hoping it is yummy. Higher fat but low sugar....sort of a trade off I guess. I'm going to put the recipe here and let me know what you think....especially Karri, since you're our resident chef:thumbup: Sugar free chocolate pudding Low fat sour cream Sugar free cool-whip Bananas Sliced strawberries Crushed chocolate wafers Make the pudding, mix in 1/2 c of the s.cream. In the bottom of a cup put a layer of strawberries, a layer of banana, crushed wafers, coolwhip, then pudding, then coolwhip, wafers, then arrange bananas and strawberries on top. I'm putting them in little champagne glasses from my wedding 6 years ago...so I can get them out of the cupboard. They actually hold about 4-6 oz is all. I hope it is wonderful! I'm keeping my fingers crossed because the church ladies can be so harsh. Keep your fingers crossed for me. Okay...bedtime. I'll talk to you all tomorrow.

Oh fahoozle!!!! I just spent 15 mins writing a reply and it dumped it! grrrr. Oh well. I'll say more tomorrow. Now it's bedtime. Night ladies

Hi ladies! Hope you had a great Friday! Ruby, I'm sorry you're not feeling so great about yourself today. I am amazed at your journey and I hope if you can't see it yourself you will take it from the rest of us that you've done a great job! Your hair will come back. I'm sure of it. I've been thinking about doing the fish oil things. They have some on QVC today. I think I'll look for what Phyl was mentioning at Costco when I go to "the city" in a couple of weeks. Phyl, I'm sorry that the navy exchange wasn't great for you! I'm glad you gave the guy a piece of your mind though. I've got a ton of 18's in a bag downstairs waiting to go to goodwill. Would you be interested in me sending them to you? Tops, bottoms, skirts....work and play related. I do have pets though so if you are allergic you wouldn't want them. Think about it. And then you can try them on in the privacy of your own home, do what you want with them and it wouldn't cost an arm and a lg. DH is taking me out for fish and waiting for me....I'm dressed up....ish...jean capris and a nice shirt.....did up my makeup. I bought size 12's today!!!! I'm so psyched. DH says I look awesome. He even told me tonight that I shouldn't worry about spending money on clothes...as long as I WallyWorld and GoodWill it, he won't complain. Isn't he just the best???? Okay...better run. I'll check back after dinner. Happy weekend if you have plans.

Good evening all. Not much happening. I went for a walk with DH tonight but we just sort of strolled along so Im not going to count it as a session. I was going to tell you about this wonderful appetizer that my sister made for graduation. It was absolutely divine. Canned chicken Mayo (light or fatfree is fine) (use as little or as much as you like) dijon mustard (1 Tbsp per each 1/2 c mayo) finely chopped celery salt and pepper to taste (it brings out a bit more flavor in the chx) Finely chopped green onions craisings chopped pineapple Slivered almonds. Mix it all together and then serve on endive boats. It was soooooo good. I can't even explain how awesome it was. The endive boats were the topping of it. I think it would be awesome as a stuffing for tomatoes too but my family won't eat it that way. We don't get endive around here so I want to find another way to serve it. It was a pretty good dip for crackers but those aren't great for me either. Had an okay day. I had a run in with one of my son's teachers. I don't think she would have said what she said had she known I was his mother and I was standing right there and was really upset at being called on it. Basically she snapped at him, turned around made some grumble about him, and when I said he was with me she said something derogatory about his organization skills....and it just slipped out....honestly I didn't plan on saying it....but I came back with "Maybe you should work on your people skills." Then I pointed out that I am a teacher and it is inappropriate for her to talk to a student OR a parent like that and then I walked out. HAG!!!! On the last day of school. Have a nice summer Michael. I've enjoyed having you in class. Look forward to seeing you next year. HAG!!!!! And then she has him next year too. grrr....I'm still gravelled over this. But....50 pounds ago I would NEVER have said that. So good for me, but I really do need to get my tongue under control. I hope everyone is doing alright. Linda, I'm sorry your vacation wasn't as wonderful as you had hoped. Peaches, can you give me lessons on how to be diplomatic? I hope you have a better day tomorrow. Night all

Shame on you!!! How infantile:thumbup::thumbup: I thought the same thing when I wrote it so I guess I can't say much huh? Just came from the chiropractor so I think I won't play it today. We'll see. I loved it yesterday but it did do a number on my back.:biggrin:

OMG!!!!! I forgot to share! Now I'm taking this all with a grain of salt for a few days to make sure it is real and someone doesn't come along and pinch me, but...... Drum roll please!!!!...... According to my Wii Fit board...... I AM FAT!!!!!!! BBYE that horrible O word. BBYE that nagging feeling that it doesn't matter I was still "o" so what did those 55 pounds really mean. BBYE forever! I AM FAT!!!! I AM FAT!!! I AM FAT!!!! I want to shout it from tall buildings, but we don't have any here on the prairie. Monday I will change my ticker if the numbers stay down....if not I will double my exercise next week and make sure they go down! Did a 45 minute walk this morning with 2 small hills instead of just one. What a great way to start the day. Waiting for the kids to wake up so I can get on with my day. Oh...and 16 oz of water in already! Have a great day all. Love and hugs to you. It's a beautiful day on the prairie.

Karri, You don't need to apologize. As I said, you didn't ask for help, you were just thrown into it. I brought something very personal to this level. I feel like I gave up a secret or something. I am so sorry for that. You know what they say about people and their opinions. You and your "quirks" are what make you so special. You are not crazy. Whatever is coming to light right now, it is what has made you "you" and what we have all been drawn to. We'll take you however you come to us. I hope you feel better today. Be careful of the tireds. They can be a b!&@$ when you are already emotionally fragile. I'll be thinking of you today.

Janet, I've forgotten to answer your question about creamed cucumbers. Here are the ingredients of one recipe. I haven't found the magic combination. I substitute splenda for the sugar and use red onions to give color. 1/2 cup sour cream 3 tablespoons white vinegar 1 tablespoon sugar Pepper to taste 4 medium cucumbers, thinly sliced 1 small sweet onion, thinly sliced and separated into rings

I wii'd for 45 minutes today and walked for 40. Yeah for me. I'm going to make my goal this month. I know it. I'm feeling good. My hips hurt a bit. Phyl, the bubble thing was unlocked today. I suck! It is soooooo bad!!! I hoola hooped today...that was fun but with my back problem it hurt. Then I tried to aerobics thing....but that was just weird. I'm really not coordinated enough or smart enough. Supposed to step right and I step off back or supposed to not step and I'm walking on.... Then I ran in place and it kept telling me to keep my pace steady. I will work on that again tomorrow. I did 2 runs and neither was very good so I'll try that again tomorrow. Tomorrow my plan is to train on sports and then do some more balance stuff. Has anyone tried the yoga? I've never been one for yoga but I might try it tomorrow. Well...better run. unless I think of something else to share. Oh...I got in 80 oz of water today, how did everyone else do? Water patrol out and about

Janet, Thanks for the input. I think you are completely right. Karri, you can tell us about your fears. You are allowed all of those scary thoughts. I should have realized that it was a need to say it not a need for it to be fixed thing. God knows I have said that plenty of times in the last month to DH. You are doing a great job keeping everything together. Janet is right, you have way more on your plate than I can even imagine juggling. I'm always in awe when I hear about how much you pack into a day. I'm sorry if I was trying too hard to fix and not just listen. Love and hugs.

Phyl, I love the wii fit. I haven't done a lot of it but so far it's been fun. My wii age on that is much younger than on the wii sports. We took it on our trip and one night we spend boxing and golfing and bowling with the family. It was great. Our 13 year old was having fun along with my 21 year old nephew (who hates everything) as well as my SIL's godmother who is about 70. How fantastic that we can all do it together. And each of us was only worried about beating ourselves, not each other....at least until DS and I boxed...then I wanted to kick his butt. He kicked mine though. Question. How accurate do you find the balance board as far as weight? I was thinking about using that for scale since I don't trust my dial ones and I won't be seeing fill PA until July. Just wondering if it was agreeing with your scales. Oh...and for anyone on the fence, my 4 year old loves to watch me play it. His favorite is the soccer balls flying at my head. I really suck at it too...but it's a lot of fun. I've only tried the balance stuff. Was thinking about doing the aerobic stuff today. I haven't had this much fun in a LONG time. I'm going to dod 30 minutes of that today as well as my walk tonight. I'm getting short on time to get my 20 sessions in...but am definitely going to do my best to get it all done. I still have 3 days so I'm not giving up yet. It's been kinda quiet around here lately. I hope everyone is doing well. I need to go back and quote everyone so I remember what else I want to say. Maybe this afternoon. Being home with the kids these last couple of days has been great. I'm loving it. I may have been sad last week but these kids are the greatest cure of all. They are so important. Okay. Off to play something awesome with them. Oh...and on my 2nd bottle of water. How are you all doing???

Karri, I'm sorry if I sounded bossy. I'm just worried. I do understand money issues. I was a single mom going to school full time on nothing more than loans. Then I was a single mom trying to live on 1k a month with 750 in bills before food and gas. It sucks and I do understand the nothing in the bank. I guess I didn't understand that it was THAT bad for you right now. I knew things were tight but I'm sorry they are so tight. Deep breaths. This too shall pass. I wish there was more and better I could say on that front. My point with the 5 pounds was that you are GREAT at losing. You are an expert at it. You did an AWESOME job losing your 100 pounds. I doubt that you would gain 5 pounds. You are too committed to your running and such. But if you did, you would be the first one to see it and lose it again. No I wouldn't want to gain 5 pounds. None of us would, but if we did you would be right there telling us that we need to focus and turn it around. That's all I was trying to get across. I wish you better luck trying to find someone to talk to. Trust me, I've been trying to find a therapist for my son for months. Finally have an appointment 200 miles from here on Monday. No one wanted to touch his case. Finally found someone who would listen. My PCP had to do it though, no one wanted to talk to me. It's tough but it's important too. I'll keep sending good thoughts. Again, I didn't mean to sound bossy or anything, I'm just concerned. If we can help, I hope we do. Nothing I can do financially or medically but I can lend some support if it will help. Hugs

Karri, I thought about you all night. Had a really hard time sleeping because I wanted to help you. You have been such an inspiration and driving force in my weight loss. I hate to see you hurting like this. I don't know that I have great words of wisdom, but these are what kept going through m mind. Get thee to a nuttery!!!! Okay, just thought I would insert a little humor there. I know that you are budgeting every penny and with DH only working part time it's really stressful, but you have insurance for a reason....because if you need to go, you need to go. Your mental health is every bit as important as your physical health. Even more so most of the time. It doesn't matter how much weight you've lost if it drives you crazy. If I had to choose I would be fat and sane instead of thin and nuts. I can live, love, work if I'm fat....I'm seriously in trouble if I'm crazy.....those things that are so important won't matter. Does that make sense? What is the worst thing that could happen if you gain 5 pounds? You don't fit in a size 4 anymore? I seriously doubt that you would have those 5 pounds for long. You've bounced around a bit in the last 9 months...up a pound or two then down 3. You know the answer when it comes to losing. So if you gain 5, you get to lose 5. .... and you're GREAT at losing. You say you don't think you're anorexic. I don't know the exact definition of the illness. But this obsession with how to get AROUND eating the food isn't healthy. We have an eating disorder. For so long it was OVEReating. Now you've transferred that to UNDEReating. It's still a disorder. No matter what name you put on it, it's not healthy. You need help to get through this. As much as we love you, we are not trained to help you here. We can't discuss the deep issues. We don't know the background. We can't just sit and look in your eyes while you dig to the roots. I don't know what your insurance policy is. I don't know how good it is. My suggestion would be to call the customer service line and ask them what their mental health policy is. If they want specifics say that your family (we are family here and DH is just as concerned) believe you have an eating disorder. I'm sure they will have some policy in place. Call them. TODAY!!! Take a step in the right direction. It may be as simple as getting on a med regimen. Remember when I was going nuts about my "cudding" problem? You told me to get to the doctor...talk until someone listens....don't give up until someone HEARS you. Now you take that same advice. PLEASE!!!! You'll never feel better until you get this under control. You are in a size 4 and worried about eating a hamburger bun. You have got to do something. Take a deep breath, find the number for your insurance center, and CALL! Tell us what you find out. We all love you and are sending good thoughts your way. I'm sending you all the strength I can muster to help you through those calls. CALL!!!

Just a quick check in. I'll be on more tomorrow. I promise. I just wanted to post to Karri....Read your blog and wanted to cry for you. I'm so sorry you are having such a horrible time. I'm sending you huge hugs and a shoulder to let it all out on. Please share with us so that we can support you. Don't hold that all in. Sharing it lets all of us carry a piece of this burden for you. It will make your life easier. I will think about what you said and see if I can come up with any gems of advice. Until then, please just know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Steph

My dear husband is so special! He definitely made my day. I got home and he told me that he forgot something in the truck and would I go out and grab it. Out I went and he had a wii fit!!!! The lady at Pamida called him today and she had put aside one of them yesterday for herself and she found out that we didn't get the other one so she called him and said she could always grab one whenever they come in so if he wanted it we were welcome to it. Wasn't that sweet??? It was a horrible evening. I was at school until 7:30. I left in tears and cried most of the way home. I can't even explain the tears. It is just so hard. It was so nice to get home and have that special treat. I haven't opened it. I'm not sure if I'm going to right now....I'm exhausted. It may have to wait. Just wanted to share the good news. Talk to you all later.

Good afternoon ladies! Taking a break from cleaning classroom and such. My ipod ran out of juice so I'm letting it recharge a bit and then I'll attack again. At least it gave me a good excuse to come visit you all. I wanted to get wiifit. My dh was supposed to be at the store when they opened to get it....our local got 2. When I talked to him yesterday he said he didn't make it there until 10 and they were both sold. GRRRRR. Oh well. I didn't really NEED it....just WANTED it. We'll get it someday. I'll keep my eyes peeled for it. But I am hugely jealous of your guys who got it. Had a great bbq last night with my students and a couple of collegues. about 15 kids showed up. We all played around in the back yard and then we went in to play wii for a bit. They had a hell of a good time watching me box! Got the snot beat out of me by one of my students. I really wanted to cream him!!! I think he'll brag on that for years! We were going to burn their math projects but it was awfully windy so I told them I would invite them back again to do that. They were pretty impressed that I would ask them back. God I'm going to miss them. Only broke down and cried once today. I've been procrastinating a ton though. I should have been done in here by noon but I keep finding little things to put my mark on before I leave. It's horrible. You can definitely tell my heart isn't necessarily in this anymore. I want to stay!!!! it will all be alright in a few days but right now, I want to stay. Drinking more Water today. Almost have 3 bottles in and will fill up another time before I go home. Will have a 5th before bed. I think that's pretty good. Okay. I'd better get off of here and get something accomplished. I'm going to be here until midnight at this rate. Karri--you had better get some rest. You're going to have a breakdown if you don't. Remember, even though we think we aren't, we are only human. You can only do so much and you are asking a lot of your body right now. Give it some rest and it will thank you for it. Okay....now I'm going....really.....