hollandkaitlyn

Thank you for sharing that with me. I know it was bad of me but i feel like thats what i needed to get me on track to a really good diet. And i am doing SO good now. Im proud of myself. I thank God i didnt hurt myself tho lol. Im here if you want to talk also!

Yes, well, after my major screw up I got very serious. I got my drain taken out Wednesday and also talked to my doctor. I am doing much better and I'm proud of myself.

I appreciate your kindness and honesty.

The discomfort has is gone now, thank goodness. I agree. Sadly, food was always a coping method and maybe a bit of an addiction... I dont know if we have one in this town.

I know! I am so mad at myself! Ugh. But it wont happen again! Im in this seriously.

Thank you. I really appreciate your understanding and encouragement. You think i should tell my doctor about me messing up?

I had my surgery June 17th. A week ago tomorrow. I still have my drain in, I get it out in two days. I was doing pretty good at the post op clear liquid...until I started experimenting. I would chew up some yummy evil fast food and spit it out. Or I would have a tiny bite of something. Then today my best friend made some french fries and i said, well maybe it will be okay. And it was. I ate 5 french fries and they went down great, felt no pain or anything. I actually felt satisfied for the first time in a while. So, I STUPIDLY tried some refrained beans. And I am hurting. I feel bloated as hell and I have a head ache. I just feel like crap. I also tried sugar free reeses and sugar free hershey bar. I am really mad at myself. Because I have lost 20 pounds in 2 weeks! That is AMAZING and I am letting food tempt me and win. Tomorrow starts my "full liquid" diet. And I might just have another only water day to make up for my dumb mistakes. Someone please tell me you have screwed up at least once with the diets so i dont feel so horrible!