Melinda - I did not see your post but I am here to vent to if you need someone. I am dealing with my emotions a lot better now that I have do e a yon more research and just said bump it lol. I am doing this no matter what and that's it lol. Then my fears started to fade. Mind you it didn't happen over night. Try and search for a Facebook page called Sassy Sleevers. I joined it and adore those people. They're from all over and give so much support. They're wonderful and sound like some peoe who could help you out too. Good luck hun.