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i told my husband, son and bff, i made the mistake of telling some of the women on the AF base i live on, which cause be big : your gunna be skinner than me fit", my mother hates the idea she thinks through yoga and Paleo Diet all my weight will fall off, so I am keeping it to myself. until of course the weight starts to really come off then I will have to tell people.. Oh and my Roller Derby Coach knows and that it..

'yeah, you made it to the losing side,,, brethe deep and keep walking.. so proud and happy for you!!!

i will be lifting you up in my prayers tonight,. and i wish you the best...

Hi Goddess Blaze name is Leilani... it is nice to meet you.. thank you so much for any and ALL you help and any direction you can point me to.. I truly do need it..

Today I packed my bag for the hospital, b/c I refuse to wear a hospital gown. I will go and get my pedi and hair done in the AM , and small mani as you cant wear nail polish to surgery. I spoke to the Pre-op RN today and went over all my med HX, and of course they need to come in 8am Wed for blood work and ekg, which I have already had done, but it is their xtra safe protocal, so be it... other then that, I made a list of the things i need and I am going to have my husband go to GNC and pick up the Liquid Multi Vit for me and then go to the commisary on base and buy SF Jello and stuff like that when I am in the hospital. Im leaving the cleaning to him and my 17yr old son.. lol

To everyone that had surgery today, I wish you the best of luck, i push this date off, as some of you know.. the reason.. So i do wish ALL of you a well wishes and know a special angel was with you today.. (my aunt ginny) I am glad I took the advice of everyone on here and push the date to 9/13, as my heart has been heavy, with the tributre to my uncle on CBS PATS vs. TITIANS gams yesteday and then my aunt 1yr today my hearts is just heavry with sorrow, I am hoping My surgery BUDDIES come online soon.... haven't heard much from anyone going on 9/13?

Prayers..stupid phone...lol

Don't be nervous..prayers going up...good luck..

ok, everytime I go to the store to try to get vitamins I get LOST and overwhemled..what is everyone else buying? I dont have any of the post op clear liquid foods in my house for after surgery yet, the only thing I can think of right now is surgery is on Thursday, I need to color my hair , get a pedicure, manicure and dye my hair and oh yeah get my eyebrow done.. why? b/c whay happens if if I die during surgery, I dont want to look like crap when my family has to see me.. WTF is wrong with me... OMG!! am i stressed or what..

Good luck..prayers and well wishes..

Rawr..I'm sorry..it will get better, I know just how you felt not that it helps as I'm still on my diet and I'm very tired but the headacheare going away and the feeling hungry is to.plus I'm losing more weight. Good luck, stay focus and know that we are all here if you just need to vent.. :-)

Bucket List: Run 1.5miles, 50 pushup, 50 sit up with my husband for his PT Airforce Test training EVERDAY Wear a 2 pc swim suit TO THE BEACH POLE DANCE Be a Jammer not a Blocker (roller derby) Wear SKINNY JEANS, come on just one pair....lol Fit into all the clothes in my closet Stay fit and healthy Show my family this was the right choice for "me"

you can do this, I have faith in you... doing forget yummy sugar free jello....

Gurl, Im on day 10, and my scale has only moved 2lbs.. i think we have stubbon fat.. I am also on(the time of my month) have you been drinking enough water? Ive been trying to drink at least 1 gallon a day to flush out all the toxics. also weight yourself only iin the morning right after you have peed. I am sure everything will be fine..btw my name is Leilani... nice to meet you..

Jessica, I have given them all abx..and lots of vit-c, my husband it getting ready to leave overseas, so my son will do his best to take care of me..what kind of liquid diet do you have to do? just get a really good protien shake, b/c you will use it anyways after surgery.. I use isoprene. I work from home for a Dr, that i use to work ofr back in AZ so i lucked out there.. if you get to weak at work, just tell them and leave work.. I find the fact i had to cut out coffee was the hardest.. i still cant get rid of the headaches, I am sure you are going to do fantastic I HAVE FAITH IN YOU!! nothing taste as good as looking thin feels!!

Good Luck and Prayers to everyone that has went and is going to surgery before me.. I wish you the best, and a speedy recovery. I am on 10th day of my pre op diet, and I am so tired, I just want to sleep.. my poor hubby and son have come down with a cold so I keep telling them please dont get me sick.. lol, or i cant have my surgery,,, they must think im crazy.. Well have a great day, and best wishes for all!!!

Thanks, I am so stressed, that my jaw is locking up at night and just started about 2 days ago, I had to start sleeping with my mouth guard in I skate with and taking somas. I know it will be worth it in the end, and I know I do it for me. I just wish my mother would realize not only have i done my read about the surgery and the out come etc and failure rate, I am also in the medical field.. I know the risk i am taking, put it is something I want and she doesnt have to get up every morning in pain and push herself through a work out and then come home and sit in a ice bath, etc.. I can say one person who will be shocked is my husband when he comes home from overseas...lol, he has never seen me under 200ibs.. only in pics

Just a vent, I havent really told to many people about me having surgery, my husband and son know and are happy. My mother how ever is NOT, she thinks hard work, yoga, and anything holistic will cure me. I made the mistake of telling a girl on the AFB I live on while we were out walking about having surgery and her reply was "great, your going to be thinner than me", I thought WOW that's really crappy, and now I dont really want to say anything to anyone about what I am going to have done as I dont feel like they will share in my happiness, but rather look at like i took the easy way out. I look back at the countless months i spent doing bootcamp style workouts and going to crossfit and was just unable to loss the weight, I am physically very strong I just carry ALOT of weight and need to get it off. I just wish the people around me would be happy and support me. One thing for sure is I cant wait to get back to roller derby and bootcamp, but the dr said that wont be at least for 4 months...grrr, he said can"t you do "nice girl " sports..lol

Hi everyone,,, I hope n wish everyone the best of luck if you having surgery in sept.. My surgery is sch for 9/13/2012 start weight so far was 240, is now 234 currently on my 4 day of Atkins . Massive headaches due to no coffee. Ugh .

I start mine in the am.. For my surgey sch on 9/13!!!! This is going to kill me...

Good luck..n prayers..