VSKitty

So, my journey begins! I've struggled with the decision, weighed all of my options and am moving forward with the vertical sleeve. Only one of my closest friends is uncomfortable with my decision, although supports my choice in the end. I understand where she is coming from, love and accept yourself no matter your size. The trouble is, that I can't love my LIFE at my size. I can love myself enough if I am content to sit around and watch life go by, but for me personally, I want to love myself in the form that I was meant to be. I want to love myself enough to want to be healthy and whole and loving life. Most importantly, I want to be a participant in life and not just a spectator. So, my journey begins! I've attended the information session and am scheduled for the physician's assistant exam, meeting with the dietician and for my psych eval. I am wildly excited and moderately scared. Of course I think of the complications, I'd be a fool not to, but I don't dwell on them. I can only do exactly as I'm instructed, to the letter and then it's in the surgeon and God's hands. So...the countdown begins and I am ready to jump in!

My son has also only known a "bigger" Mom. I asked him how he'll feel about me looking so different and he said that he'd have to think about that! lol It's something that I'd not considered. It won't change my mind, of course, but something to talk about with him and get him comfortable with the idea. Your daughter sounds very bright and intuative. She loves you unconditionally and so is going to naturally be worried until you are on the other side of this. I think that you are doing all you can to reassure her that you are looking for a healthier you so that you can be around for a long, long time. Best of luck to you!

So much of what you've written, I could have written about myself. I too have PCOS and have steadily gained weight over the years to the point that I will hit 300lbs if I don't stop the madness. I also hate, hate, hate photos of myself! I also lost a son, although not as a newborn but any loss of a child is devastating (my condolences) I attended the information meeting this week and am scheduled for the RD and PA assessments for next week, psych eval the week after that. It's all moving pretty fast now! I look forward to an improved version of myself. Good luck to you on your journey!

Thanks for sharing! You look amazing

I was waking up 3 or 4 times a night to use the bathroom, or so I thought! Turns out that I was waking myself up because I'd stopped breathing (for over a minute in some cases) I'd also never feel refreshed in the morning, snored like a grizzly bear and had a constant dry throat. I went for sleep study, DX severe sleep apnea and am doing fine on the CPAP machine. I am pre-surgery and hope that in time, that I can lose the machine and sleep normally on my own. I'd LOVE that. Good luck to you!