mom2ris

Good Luck Ellie!

Believe it or not I had McDonald's. This is not what I had planned but we were out and I thought why not. It was McDonald's that got me here along with a million other bad choices. I am surviving the liquid diet. I have my moments. It seems to bother others more than me. My preop consists of 6 shakes a day. I can have sf drinks, water and decaf tea/coffee. I can have one serving of sf jello per day but nothing else. My family and coworkers think I am nuts. They don't understand why I want to subject myself to this. I ignore them. I can't believe what I have already subjected my body to..... Thanks for letting me rant.

I am on day 2 of my pre op liquid diet. I have to do this for 2 weeks. My husband, who is having the sleeve done with me, only has to do 1 week. Our surgery is August 5th. I wanted to cry today when I heard my stomach growl. But to be honest I cannot remember the last time I heard it growl. I am learning a lot about this body of mine. That is when the pity party started. I feel like crap. How could I have let myself go this far? How come I did not stop the overeating when I only had 50 pounds to lose?? I went through a list of how, why, when....you name it. I then realized that I am being given an opportunity to get my life back. To enjoy things I have not been able to do. To go places I have been uncomfortable going. I am going to be new.....it is all going to be worth it. And the best part is I have my husband there for support. He will be my partner through this new stage of our lives. We will be a team. So I decided to go wash some clothes. To give myself a change of scenery. To wash clothes I may not be able to wear again someday....

Cheers!! I am down to one pair of jeans thanks to those rub holes.

I am starting my liquid diet tomorrow and find I am really anxious about it. I feel like I spend more time focusing on food today than I ever did. Everyone keeps asking what I want for my last meal and it's driving me nuts!!! I feel like I am being sent to the executioner.....I have to keep remembering why I am doing this.

I am new to all this....even blogging. My husband and I are scheduled for surgery on August 5th. All of our pre op testing is complete. We have met all requirements and are approved. Yipee!! I have been so focused on this surgery and all it entails that I think of nothing else. I dream about protein and vitamins and hydration. My husband has been wonderful and he is a very good planner making sure we have everything we need. He is always like this. I am grateful for that because I am a last minute person and would be out the night before surgery searching for something. I feel like this is all that is going on in my life. I think so much about food and eating that I don't even want to eat.......I am hoping our vacation will give me a chance to focus on something else. I am glad I found this website. I am learning a lot of things both good and bad. I enjoy reading about everyone's triumphs and struggles. It is good to have someone to talk to..... Thanks for listening.

I am realizing that I will do better at this since he is experiencing it too. Good luck on your adventure. I can't wait to be 3 weeks post op!!