Ok...
So I have been reading a lot of stories on this site for about four months now. I never commented one way or another about the good, bad, and the ugly of pre-op diet, the surgery, or the recovery. I wanted to get all the information I could about the procedure. All the while I have been going to appointments, preparing myself for this journey and trying to decide if this is the best thing for me.
With my insurance (BCBS-FEP) I had to do a 3 month supervised diet, pysc. evaluation, and had numerous attempts at weight loss (check, check, and check). My Dr.'s office submitted my paperwork June 6 and I got my approval June 11, 2013. Really fast huh....? I thought so, I thought it would be weeks before I heard anything but to my surprise I got a phone call today to schedule my pre-op testing, schedule the surgery (surgery date is July 1, 2013) and to start my 2 week liquid diet. (talk about the speed of light) I've been on pins and needles the last couple of days thinking I had weeks to wait but now the time is come I'm kinda freaking out. Don't get me wrong I'm excited because I have thought about having this procedure done for a while but now that it is within reach I'm questioning if I'm making the right decision.
I have not told ANYONE about what I'm doing mainly because I wasn't sure I would be approved, secondly I don't know how they are going to react (other than my mom and her worrying because it is surgery). I know that now I need to share but I'm worried about their reaction because this is a drastic step (in the right direction) but a drastic step still. I only plan on telling one person and that will be the person that has to drive me home. I just feel like this is my decision and my business, and I don't need any negative comments during this journey. After I achieve my goal of weight loss, then I will share how I achieved those goals and will be able to give first hand experience of the LapBand and maybe refer others.
I said all that to say YES I'm excited and YES I'm really nervous.