jg9956

Thank you everyone I'm on day two...it's a bit easier, believe it or not, being at work all day. Yesterday I only worked for a couple hours and then I laid on my couch, depressed. Obviously, not the thing to do. LOL I'm busy at work, and even though I want those damn cupcakes, I'm too busy to think about how hungry I am. I am already sick of the shakes, mainly because I don't like icy drinks, so I think I just need to stop making them with crushed ice. I think I'm making myself drink too much of it. The low sodium broth is helping. I appreciate all of your support.

Yes, I'm a pastry chef, cake designer, cupcake maker...I own a successfull cake business and I'm on day one of my pre-op liquid diet. I have no idea how I will ever make it through these 9 days...working in the bakery this morning, I quickly realized how bad my habits were. I kept grabbing, unconsciously for cookie dough, an extra piece of chocolate, a little lick of frosting and had to stop myself. Honestly, I don't know if I even did take a sample of anything, my unconscious eating habits have gotten that bad. I'm starving...I have a headache and I just want to stuff a turkey club, chips and a cupcake in my mouth. I certainly hope this gets better after surgery, and certainly hope its worth it, considering my love affair with food. Surgery is November 2nd 2012 and I'm feeling depressed about it, wondering if I've made the right decision. I know I need to push through, I'm just hoping I'm not the only one feeling this way? It's not like I can distance myself from food...it's my livelihood. I also hope that I will still have the drive to come up with new recipes. I found myself wanting to make something different today, and then telling myself who cares, you can't have it anyway, what's the point? Oh boy, I hope I can get past this! Or I'll be broke! LOL and hungry....