I have been denied by the insurance. I need 6 months of documented weight loss with doctor and nutritional supervision. Weight watchers doesn't count, (been there done that) my own fitnesspal doesn't count and I missed a month I between two of my appointments so now the 9 months I was going are null and void because they have to be consecutive. I am trying to wrap my mind around the bullish:t. Now I am at a 36 bmi after I lost the weight needed to get approved for the surgery so I might now not even get approved because they don't know if my previous weights will count, I might have to start over at the weight I am now. I don't want to gain the weight back just for this. I know it will happen sooner or later but I just want to fool myself and think that this weight has come permanently off. It was only 20 pounds but still... I feel better, and I look better. I just want to eat a large pizza and drink a few bottles of wine in a dark room and hide under a blanket watching really horrible romantic comedies or dr who, perhaps with a gallon of ice cream. But, I made a hummus, arugula pita instead, still contemplating on the wine though and the dr who is a given.