Thank you all so much for your stories and advice. I agree - I'm going to be honest, sit him down and explain that I'm tired of yo-yo diets (I've been on 10 in 15 years). I'm tired of paying hundreds of dollars to loose 20lbs and then put on more weight the minute I stop. I know he'll understand how unhappy I've been. I know he'll tell me he loves me just the way I am. Bless him. I hope he'll understand that it's not about how much he loves me, but more about how I desperately want to love myself. Thanks again.