susie77453

I was banded in March 2005 and had really great success. I lost about 40kg and was happy and living a life that I loved. In 2008 I had a slip. My surgeon and I tried to work with it and see if it was manageable but by January 2010 pretty much the only foods i could keep down were the chips and chocolate. I was unhappy all the time, would be vomiting with every meal and had heartburn like no ones business (turns out I had a hiatus hernia). So I decided to have the band removed. Since then I've put on all of the weight i lost and then some. I've never felt more low. I've been dealing with depression and bi polar disorder for years and years and this added weight has made it the worst I've ever had it. I hate going out anywhere anymore, i hate going to see people or even people coming to see me. I'm scared every day that this is what my life will be forever. I'm considering the sleeve but am so scared about what I've read. I'm worried that I'll not be able to control my eating and I'll have a leak. I'm worried about giving up eating and enjoying food. I'm scared that it will send me even further into my depression/bi polar "black hole". And I'm worried about telling people - this might be dumb and i cant really explain it but I'm embarassed to tell people. Only 1 member of my family knew about my band surgery when it happened. They were hurt that I didn't tell them when they finally found out. I guess I'm on here trying to find out all i can from people's personal experiences. Anything you've got will help me a lot! Are there any regrets? What kind of complications have you had? I don't even know anything about what kind of foods i will and wont be able to eat! Just very scared to make my decision...