I just want to know if there is anyone out there like me...
I am 6+ months post surgery...I've lost 90+ pounds. People say I look great...I feel better physical because I feel lighter and have more energy than before.
I sometimes (not often) can say okay I look good. I still see myself as heavy even though I'm a healthy weight. The scale reads the same yet I feel heavier. I get cravings for snacks and I allow myself to have snacks that are on the healthier side...I'll have lots of fruit, some walnuts, cheeks it reduced fat or sugar free 80 calorie ice cream and all this is not everyday I try to have fruit mostly.
I've been getting very worried about gaining weight back. Yesterday a family member questioned a craving I had knowing I probably would have had a very small portion and that made me feel mire self conscious.
I then completely lost my appetite and didn't have dinner and now I am terrified of eating. Today I had a protein shake and a Caesar side salad for lunch from Wendy's just to please my daughter so she shouldn't worry. I want to lose more weight now even though my surgeon, my primary doctor and others told me I've lost enough.
What is happening? Shouldn't I be happy to have lost the weight? I'm hungry but the thought of eating anything other than a protein shake and water maybe broth makes me wanna cry.
Any feedback would be appreciated.