sweetdarling1983

So in 2010 I got a lap band it started off wonderful I lost about 80 pounds. Actually a lot of things in my life changed with in that first year such as leaving a very abusive man and just being all around happy with my self. I shortly after meet someone new fell in love got pregnant well we had our own issues and I kinda of fell off track. I started to get back on track and ended up getting pregnant again and after I had him I had a IUD put in..... Worse mistake ever I went from having control over craving to feeling the need to eat everything and anything in sight and put on about 100 pounds. I finally got the dang thing taken out I no longer have alot of the issues I did but being about the same weight as I was 6 years ago makes me feel as If i have failed. I have been trying to get back on track but between a supper skinny supportive husband and trying to raise my 3 kids I cant find the motivation to actually work out to help me drop the weight.I know that life is life and can get in the way most of all when we let it as I have and we fail and I just cant find any motivation to stay on track right now it seems little things just get me so down and I fall off track again I dont know why I am even posting other then to put how i feel out there right now most of all since i have been back and forth for a little on joining a gym but with otu someone to go with i fear my anxiety and ptsd will get the best of me and ill not go

I had my band put in about 5 years ago since then I have had 2 little boys and got derailed. Anyways since my last child I have noticed that I have trouble eating first thing in the morning and then once it gets warmer though out the day it gets even harder. I might take 3 or 4 bites and feel like poop. It really doesn't matter if its a scrambled egg of baked chicken I end up feeling like crap. How ever once it starts to cool off I have no problems eating normal stuff. Anyone have this problem ?

I am trying to figure out if its because I have put on weight in the last 2 years due to my last pregnancy and some issues with the IUD hormones that have cleared up since i had it removed or if this will be my new normal. I have tried even eating easy foods in the day time and it just sucks. It is nice to know I am not alone and I just have to keep looking for something that will work for me.

Yes I still have my lap band. I think the major reason for the weight gain back is in part to the fact I have had 2 pregnancy and after my last child I had a IUD put in and the hormonal issues were supper bad for me once i got it in. I went from having energy to all ways wanting to sleep it made my body hurt I had major cravings even looking at food I would put on weight. Since I have had the IUD removed I dropped 30 pounds in 5 weeks. I never had a fill either because I was dropping so fast that first year could play a part but I think a lot of it is the issues I had with the IUD since i noticed this past week I am gaining more energy and starting to feel less sore all over but the Dr said it could take some time for my body to fully fix it self from the issues my IUD caused for 2 I had it.

Ok so this is going to be a confession kind of about 5 years ago I got a lap band I started off so strong I dropped 50 pounds made a lot of huge changes in my life but then I ended up pregnant and I didnt put on much weight but lacked motivation to keep working out after words between on the demands of being mother of 2 kids and once my middle child turned 2 i was having baby 3. Recently I have wanted to work out more but at home i cant stay motivated as I am alone it feels like. My husband tells me that yoga is not a real work out and then when my kids are all ways under foot when I try in the day time by the time everyone is asleep i am just very tired. I have been thinking about going to the gym but being 280 pounds I am scared to feel out of place not only that I wouldnt know where to start what to do and fear i would give up because i dont have the best support system or even someone to do it with. Anyone feel that way ?

I think having a work out buddy wouldnt help me fail I had one a couple years ago she hated working out but I had a blast and once she quit i just kept going its the first little getting in to the grove I have a issue with i get bored alone and I would walk with my kids but the 2 younger ones just take off running and my oldest its to hard on her heart right now she is waiting on approval to have her heart fixed. Also alot of the lack of motivation at home comes from my husband who when I do work out he makes fun of me or what ever. I was telling him how I have lost 30 pounds and he was like cool tell me when you hit under 200. I was so hurt by it because i had worked hard to get under 300 he wont even try working yoga and because he does stuff like that my younger kids also have started making fun of me when i work out and it really hurts.

I wish I could get my buddy to join with me but I only have 1 real life friend and she out right refuses to work out or anything. My husband refuses to join me in working out because well hes so skinny that the dr would love to see him put on weight the only person who would work out with me is my 11 year old and due to her heart condition and need for surgery cant right now. I have been thinking more and more about joining a gym since working out at home is no longer working for me i find every excuse not to do it where i think since i would have to pay to work out i would feel the need to make the most out of the money i spent. I guess because I have all ways been picked on i have many issues with being out and about where my boobs might jiggle and guys feel the need to say rude things as they all ways have