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I really need to go back to the doctor but they don't let you see the doctor (sugeon) you only get to see his PA who is not nice. And NO I don't expect to be babied, I am an adult and can accept the consequences of my actions... BUT I also don't appreciate that snarling attitude, you know the one some medical professionals have... You're a fat slob with no self control" So, here I am procrastinating and not calling and really wanting help but not wanting to suck it up and make an appointment with the MEAN Lady who has no sympathy for FAT people. All I am really asking for is support. Yeah, I've likely screwed up, but I have also lost 120 lbs! We all stumble sometimes. I just want to be able to go in and say, hey, what can we do about this and let's do it. I will try to follow the rules better if you will be NICE to me! I really feel like they put the band in and said there ya go! Have a nice day. Anyway... Tomorrow I am going to suck it up and call. I am going to try really hard to get the see the doctor. Thanks for letting me vent!

how hard was it to stick with the liquids?

I've never PB'd, Never thrown up, been "stuck" maybe twice since I was banded in Dec of 2006. I have 9.5 cc's in a 10 cc band and I can eat just about anything I want. I am so frustrated with that but even so, I've lost 130 pounds. (Thanks to Dr. Atkin's). Well last week, I went to get a fill and the evil fill PA said if I can still eat whatever I want after this fill I should get an upper GI. So now I am all worried about that, I don't want to go see her because I don't want to admit to her that I can eat two gooey cinamon rolls with no problem except my guilt and self hatred. Really, I just did that and all I feel is full. No pain, no gagging, nothing. Do you think that there could be something wrong and I just don't know it? Or do you think I would have felt something if something was wrong? Thanks for your support. KRistin

Good morning girlfriends!! Today is going to be a great day full of success for all of us! Go out and kick some booty!

I had fill # 2 today. I now have 6cc's in 10cc band. I feel fairly certain I will have restriction. I also lost 3 pounds more!!! I am so happy.

Avilla, maybe your need to vary your calorie intake. do like 12-1400 for one or two days and then go back down.

I so hope I get restriction tommorrow! Fill #2. I have been bad (I feel like I am always confessing to being bad) but I will start over tommorrow! My plan for tommorrow is Get in all my water, have a shake for breakfast and dinner and a light lunch. I think I will get some yogurt to eat for a snack. I will walk tommorrow!

Hi Cassandra, welcome to bootcamp! I am glad you are here! I am sorry you took offense to the Sarge's comments but please be assured it is only intended to help you be better. I call her sarge because she calls me on my flaws and doesn't let me get away with making excuses! I think that is why it is called "bootcamp". Hugs,

I think you should get an unfill!

A CONFESSION I have lost my motivation...It want kaput. I am waiting to get a proper fill (I have only had one) and actually know what restriction is and in the meantime, I haven't kept to the banster rules. Now granted, I eat a little less than pre band but still not like I should. Today I had an egg mcmuffin for breakfast, 1 1/2 oatmeal cookies, whopper jr. with cheese and small ff and a piece of cake. When I used to eat breakfast at McD's before it was egg mcmuffin, hash browns, breakfast burrito and a coke. or at BurgerKing it was a full size whopper lg ff and coke. But that just sounds like I am trying to justify, which I am not. I go for a fill a week from today, I sure hope I get some restriction then. I have been drinking with some of my meals and not chewing well, I need to get prepared for when I do have restriction. So anyway, I felt the need to confess my sins and start over.

The depo shot made me a psycho. I was so bitchy and so uninterested in sex that it put a real strain on my rel. with my hubby. I read somewhere that depo is what they give criminal sex offenders to chemically castrate them. And I gained about 60 pounds. I did like not having a period though, that was nice. I am in need of some form of birth control until hubby gets snipped but I so do not want to do hormones. Can you tell me more about your IUD. What is it like to have it implanted and do you have any side effects?

Congratualtions nursiepooh!!

It is so hard to pinpoint what I like about myself, although I know I generally like myself I have difficulty with the specifics. Likes: I am compassionate I am fun I am smart enough to get by I have a good sense of humor I have patience I am outgoing I put others at ease Dislikes I am a slob I think negative often I don't do things I think I should I will work on the negative thinking!! this week.

It is really quiet here. I had my first fill on the 22nd, now I have no restriction. I am scheduled to go back oln the 6ht. hope to have restriciton after that !

Great prayer sarge! I will post my measurements tonite when I am at home with the tape measure.