I am scared. So scared. I just have this awful feeling mixed with excitement, so it is driving me crazy. I do not want to leave my children motherless. i do not know if its the fear of going to Mexico for surgery or the surgery iself. But it doesn't matter because it's still fear. I am also more scared because I am struggling with the preop diet and the not smoking. The fear is causing me to smoke and the smoke is causing me fear. I just bought an electric cigarette and it is charging so we'll see. Good luck and lots of prayers to you!