MONDAY IS THE BIG DAY! IM EXCITED CANNOT WAIT. IM CURRENLTY 262 SIZE 20 AND IM JUST SO UNHAPPY WITH THE WAY I LOOK. I WANNA BE LIKE THE OTHERS ON THIS SITE. LIKE THE ONES THAT CAN SAY I HAVE LOST 20,40,80 112!! MY GOAL. I WANNA GET THERE I NEED TO GET THERE. WELL I DONT KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY.....I JUST CANT WAIT!!!!!!!!!
:)IN 4 DAYS I WILL FINALLY HAVE MY SURGERY. IM NOT SURE HOW I FEEL ABOUT YET, WELL I DO KNOW THAT I'M EXCITED AND I KNOW THAT THINGS CAN ONLY GET BETTER FROM NOW. I HAVE A 1YEAR OLD BABY AND I WANNA SEE HER GET OLDER AND I WANNA BE ABLE TO PLAY WITH HER AND I WANT HER TO HAVE A GREAT MOM THAT SHE CAN PLAY WITH AND THAT OTHER KIDS DON'T MAKE FUN OF. AT THE RATE IM GOING I KNOW IF I DON'T TAKE DRASTIC MEASURES I WILL SURELY DIE IF NOT FROM MY WEIGHT FROM BEING DEPRESSED ABOUT IT:( SOMETIMES ITS HA