It's so hard to wait!! Spent the last two years in treatment for food addiction, had my required three month supervised diet in addition to that and was all set mentally for an August 20 surgery! Unfortunately, my hematologist keeps wanting to run tests ( 6 weeks of testing now), and we won't know the results in time for me to do a two week prep for surgery. ???? Then my sister and my father are both heading out of town. Both have asked me not to have surgery until they are back. Dad won't be back until September 12!! I know it's only an additional month but it seems like forever. I had wanted a good three months of my new life before the pressures of the holidays.

Whoops, hit the wrong button and posted! I feel that I've been getting ready for this for over 40 years! Guess I just needed to vent and get some support and encouragement. Not telling anyone but my bff what kind of surgery so I don't have anyone to talk to (except for the most awesome psychologist!). Thanks for listening!

The waiting is the worst or maybe it's the weighting...haha. Seriously though, I'm on my 2 week pre op diet and I just want to get the surgery over with so I don't have to worry and have my family worry at me about it.

Yesterday my sister started crying and said I better not die. Ack! That's the last thing I want to think about. I told her I'm doing this to continue to live. If I remain obese I won't live long and my quality of life is bad. Staying strong while waiting is definitely hard work!