Emotional baggage!!!

tomorrow I start my 3 day liquid diet! I am very fortunate that I don't have the two week liquid diet that many bandsters have ( I think that would kill me )

As time begins to dwindle down to surgery day, a lot of questions are starting to arise that are scaring me!

• Will my personality change? ( hope not!)
  

• Will I enjoy the new attention? (probably not)
  

• Will people still see me as smart and caring, or just pretty and thin? ( probably not )
  

• Will my relationship with my long term boyfriend change? ( hope not!)
  

• Will I give up on this, like i have on EVERY OTHER DIET? ( god, that scares me)
  

I have always seen my fat suit as a curse, but the closer I come to taking it off, the more I realise how much I care about it.

The last week or so, I have really begun to analyse myself, and I have had overwhelming feelings of missing this body (to the point of crying!) This is the body I am so used to, how can I be happy and adjusted in the deflated version of this body??