SURELYCEE

I have not had the lapband surgery as of yet. I am very nervous, but I am proceeding with pre surgery testing. I will have the band, I have to change my life....this weight I care around with me is overwhelming, painful, and embrassing. I broke a chair yesterday at work, in front of my co-workers............primal scream, need I say more.


It has been 2 years since I have had the surgery. I have lost 115 pounds to date. I feel physically wonderful. Mentally with all the issues I have with men, my sister, is really bringing me down. At times I cry because of the situation I am in. I feel trapped. I long to escape to another world. Once I loose the rest of the weight, and I have my reconstruction surgery. I am going to run away. I am going to leave it all behind and find some happiness away from this miserable world I have been forced into. Todays date is September 22, 2012.