Tinagrl

Is anyone following the Atkins plan for before or after Lapband surgery? Im thinking about following a low carb until my surgery pre op starts and then again after surgery. Anyone doing this?

Gold star??? OOOO i wanna a gold star!!!!

Oh and yes my partner doesnt always say things very gracefully. She said that what she meant was that she was afraid i wouldnt and i would have complications.....mhm right. I know what she meant and i know what she said. And yes she has not been very supportive with this. This makes me very very sad indeed.

I had contractions throughout my whole pregnancy too. I did end up in the hospital on an IV to stop them but i did have them and my daughter was only born a little early(couple weeks). I will pray this is the case here and that she will be fine and baby is healthy

So my partner just informs me that she doesnt think i will follow the guildlines of the lap band diet. She said she thinks i CAN but that i probably WONT. But doesnt that mean she thinks i CANT? UGH!

1day at a time, did you lose all the weight and put it back on? How do you think the weight gain happened? Im just wondering because it sounds like you had lost some weight and put it back on again. Im worried i will do that too I learn from others and srry if im being nosey...just trying to catch up on the situation behind some of your posts. And YES you WILL take control of your weight. And there is a really really good friend to have in these situations...well in any situations....God. Best friend i ever had

Well i will tell you thank you for your warm welcome. Thank EVERYONE for the warm welcome. Im very lucky to have found friends like you.

I am working really hard right now and down 10 lbs in just a week and a half. Ive been doing weight watchers pre op and will do it up to the liquid diet which i anticipate happening mid January. It would be funny if my dates were dead on eh? Jewel i read some of the posts from page 300ish or so when you first came in and i will tell you ....WOWZER! You have grown leads and bounds my friend and you have everything in the world that i want! They used to tell me in AA that if someone has what you want...do what they do. Well i intend to follow in your footsteps if at all possible. In a year i want to read back and go...."wow i really have grown" and be down that much weight. Janet i will try to stick with the same plan that you are on. I like that plan and i am too a night time eater. I like to eat the most at night. Especially after my meds...which increase appetite. I am in the process of coming off that medication though. Down to 100mg...the last stretch. I will be off next week all together. The medication is called Serequel and i DO NOT recommend it for any food addict EVER! But i still get the munchies mostly at night. I have cut way back during the day now to allow for some night time munchies. I'm eating veggies at night when im hungry. I cook extra at dinner and eat the left overs in the night when im hungry...or when i think im hungry Anyway, went to Target today and walked for about 15 mins around the store. Progress. Had a Pumkin Spice Latte though...naughty but was a treat and i had the points so why not. I haven't had a treat yet since i got on WW and me and Jeani sat and "communicated" a little. We are doing much better...not much fighting the last two days. I woke up in the middle of the night the night before last crying and it seems since then she has backed off with the comments and im trying to not be argumentative back. Seems to be working better. Jewel did you and your husband make it through the lap band stuff...i read that he was being a butthead. And if so did you make him a believer in the band? Anyway enough out of me....its so nice to have you guys to talk to. Are you guys having any sort of meeting this year. You can all come to Nashville!!! Music City USA! Woot! Laters, Tina

What is Onederland btw?

Gosh i typed a paragraph and it erased it because i accidently left the page. Arg! Jessica, What i was saying was that im proud of you that you are running a 5k. That is my dream. I ran in my early 20's and LOVED it. I cant wait til i can run again!. I have so many goals that i want to accomplish. When i started this journey and they told me i had to do all this stuff in order to get insurance to pay i thought no way, thats crazy and that is going to take FOREVER. Well im done with all of that and it was worth going through it. I'm meeting with the surgeon Monday and im still thinking somethings going to happen bad because i feel like this is just too good to be true. Did anyone worry right up to the last minute that something would happen and they wouldn't get to have your surgery? Arg Im so worried!!!! God's not going to drop me now thats for sure I know this but i cant help but let me addict mind try to sabotage this great experience! I want to do the couch to 5k challenge too someday. I'm proud of you that you are able to accomplish your goal. This is a wonderful accomplishment indeed. Laters, Tina

That was weird that it just repeated and typed a little more of each sentence each time hehe! Strange. Janet is that all you are able to eat because of the band or is it just the portions you chose? Counting the days. Monday meeting with Surgeon! Hopefully setting a surgery date! Its Wednesday! Woo hoo!! I cant wait to start my new life! Laters, Tina

I do know sometimes some people have to take an anti depressant to help them over a hump. I had a friend who had to do that and she didnt have any mental illness or anything.

Tough love is just fine with me as long as its love Yes i am trying to get into contact with a therapist to get started on some healing. I am not really feeling any better and i took the pill this morning. Hopefully in a couple weeks i will know the difference. I am only 36 so i am the baby here i guess eh?

Thanks for the hugs! I appreciate it. Yes im working hard at getting out of this dark hole i am in. Blah Blah and Blah! hehehe!

I'm not sure if any of you lived in a dark constant depression when you were gaining and at your heaviest. I am about to undergo surgery and i've realized i've been in a depression for 2 years. It is a realization that hit me HARD yesterday. I realized that all of my depressive moments which have been constant for quite some time were not all caused by Mom's illness and that indeed i was in a depression from going off of a medication 2 and 1/2 years ago. I dont really know what to blog about except that i hope the new medication helps me and that i can learn to stand back up and take back my life from the dark place its been all this time. The surgery day is coming soon after a 2 week liquid diet in which i have heard is the toughest part of the lap band procedure. I can do it though, it will all be worth it in the end Laters, Tina

Honestly all you can do is hop back on the wagon. You have a great tool inside you. The Lapband! And if you could do it once you can do it again! Laters, Tina

Cheri, I too am bipolar and been on meds for years and years. I'm normally stable and came off the anti depressant because of the many negative side effects and i figured i didn't need it any more. Well, was i ever wrong. The last 2 and a half years has been total hell and i didnt even see it. I blamed it on my mothers illness and death. Im going to try to do some chores in the kitchen today. Maybe organize some things. We shall see. Right now im going to go take my meds and hope that anti depressnat kicks in quickly. <3 Laters Tina

We have been together 6 years. She thinks we need individual work on oursleves before we can do couples...i dont know if this is true or not but yes i really want to do couples counseling.

Cheri, its amazing how similar your relationship issues were and are so much like mine. My partner does everything for me though. She gets my medication, she does the house chores including laundry and cleaning. The only thing i do is cook dinner. The rest of the time she literally takes care of me in every way. She even shaves my legs as embarrassing as that is to admit. I went to the psychiatrist yesterday. He thinks i have been in a chronic depression since i went off my anti depressants 2 and a half years ago. I didn't realize it either until yesterday when i noticed i am heading downhill with my moods. Its been a long time since i have been happy. I hate my life and hate living. I stopped living life about the same time i went off the medication. I gained a lot of this weight since then too. I dont go anywhere, i dont do anything and i just want to sleep. She too does the grocery shopping as well. I have trouble staying on my feel long enough to do the shopping. I have always made excuses for the down and tired feelings. I had a thyroid problem but when they fixed it the problem didnt go away. I made the excuse for my depression the fact that my mother was sick and then she died. While, yes that is a good excuse to become depressed i cant use it to justify my lack of living anymore. My partner told me she wants a "partner to live life with." she said, "i want to share idea's and do things together". " Explore the world together". I dont know if this will happen but we decided we are going to try and make this work. I am setting myself up with a therapist. Going to start this anti depressant this morning. I really need to start doing things for myself. Its just so hard since she has done everything for so long now. And i have like i said become totally dependent on her for everything. Its a helpless, hopeless feeling. I woke up in the middle of the night and just cried for like an hour. Hopefully this anti depressant will help me. Laters Tina

My dad is a truck driver and he still works in Canada and does runs into the US. He will be here in Nashvillle next weekend. My dad lives in St Thomas he said. No i dont go visit i dont have my passport yet. I am working on my passport. Well folks it looks like my marriage has come to an end. We both decided that all this fighting was making us both miserable. I'm tired of fighting thats for sure. Im really scared because i have been so dependent on her for all this time because of my weight...not being able to do much on my own. But i will soon be able to get on my feet. Surgery in Jan i hope! I have my consult with the surgeon on Jan 3rd. I am going to start going to AA again. Its hard though to get around and do things still though. I get worn out really quickly. Im completely sedentary so getting around is really hard for me. I went to the grocery store the other day and that was a chore.I just hope i can survive the next month until surgery in the same house as her. Im scared like i said, and want to start doing more for myself but its really hard. Physically im doomed at the moment. IM in a really scary spot. Tina

Congrats to you!!! I cant wait for that day!!! Im very proud of you , this is a hard road.

Im starting to think single is best. This is crazy. Relationships suck. Hope everyone had a good day today. Like i said...same ole same ole with the fighting thing. I know the neighbors think we are killing each other or something. haha!

My dad is in London Ontario area... You are right. Next year is a new year! I hope my week gets better , today sucks too. Me and my spouse are fighting....again. Gosh seems all we do anymore, idk where that will lead. Thanks for your responses guys. Laters Tina

Well, today was a very sad and depressing day for me. I laid in bed half the day feeling sorry for myself , something usual for me lately it seems. My mother passed away last Easter on Easter Sunday. She was very very sick with a rare form of Cancer. To explain why i'm extremely grateful that Christmas is over is sort of a long story: I will begin saying that my mother was the most disciplined determined woman i have ever met in my entire life. When the doctors gave her 8 months to live she told them they were wrong and that she would do whatever she could to fight for her life. My sister had a friend who happened to know a Cancer survivor and her friend suggested to my sister that Mom try the holistic high alkaline diet; and as my mother told us a short time later, Cancer cant survive in an alkaline body. Which is actually true so we found out over the next 2 years or so. My mother went on a regimen of taking supplements, in the number of around 10-15 or more a day, and began to alkalize her body by eating high alkaline foods such as juiced veggies (the juiced veggies reminded me of a thick green sludge, something that comes out of your butt on a bad day) Like i said...determined. She ate no red meat., in fact nearly no meat at all. Vegan diet sort of. Nothing low alkaline. It was a very hard diet for anyone to be on but my mother, being as amazing and determined as she was, did this diet every day of her last 2 years. She lasted a year and half longer than those doctors told her and she actually made believers in the high alkaline diet out of her medical doctors. My mother came here to Nashville to visit last Christmas. By then she was pretty sick and had a difficult time getting on a plane and flying here from Vancouver Canada, but she did it. All for me. She knew i couldn't come to Canada for Christmas and she wanted to spend it with the WHOLE family and she wanted me to be with her too so she came here as sick as she was and we made a Christmas in Nashville. The high alkaline diet was beginning to not be able to keep up with her failing organs. So, she spent a lot of her time here snuggled up to me on the couch in her red pajamas. On Christmas Eve, my sister made a nice dinner of Prime Rib Roast and all the fixins. My mom sat at the table with all of her children and grandchildren all together for the first time in my mothers life. She cried a little and said how grateful she was for this Christmas and how wonderful it was to have us all together. THAT made it so worth it for everyone. A tad bit of bickering between sisters and brothers and nieces and nephews...typical family drama on Christmas. It was SO worth it to see my mother on that night and the look on her beautiful face. So you see, that is why Christmas was so hard this year. I remember the beauty of last Christmas and then looking at this Christmas, alone, no family, sister went to LA, father in Canada....just me and Jeani. The best part was a fire we lit on Christmas eve. I told God i was sorry i didn't celebrate Jesus's birth in a better way but that i just couldn't get up the Christmas spirit this year. God said it was fine, and we got through it. Today i just cant help but look at this last month and recognize that all the mood swings have been because of losing my mother this Easter and the fact that i am the kind of person that just cant look at things the way other people do. I shut it all up inside and dont let anyone know what is inside of me or what i am feeling or thinking. So running through peoples lives with a tornado of mood swings probably wasn't the best thing to do. Its how i cope though and maybe someday i will learn how to cope like a normal human being. Maybe sooner than later i hope. But this is the reason why i am so shut down, quiet and sad this Christmas season. So i hope the people in my life can understand that i am sorry for being such a jerk, and so quiet and withdrawn. And why i am so glad today, that Christmas is over. That i can now look at the next year and pray for happiness and success. And hope that maybe next Christmas, it will be filled with a little more joy and a little more spirit. Until next time, Tina