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OMG!!:embaressed_smile: Personal Trainer KICKED MY ASS! OUCH ouch.... ouch....hurts to type I ran 2.25 miles for 30 min. Then did 45 minutes of "kick your ass" weight training! She was with me every step of the way making me stay in form and making me go from start to finish! Damn, I am going to be a different person in 4 weeks! My first session is a 4 week training period. Then, we switch it up bc at that point my muscles shld be getting strong. I will be moving on to free weights! I'm scared! hahaha Not really... I am smiling the whole time I hurt. and I do hurt.... did I mention IT HURTS!?!?!? if this scale doesnt start moving after all of this.... i give up! haha ----------------------------------------------- BK - so glad to hear from you girl! do write more often we worry when you are gone and miss you when you aren't in the conversation! Booboo -- hope you are feeling better hon! (hugs) Steph - how'd did you daughter do????

Well, I spoke to the Plastic Surgeon.... to qualify with my insurance, I must lose over 100 lbs and maintain that loss for 18months. Soooooo, I am trying as hard as possible to work out to lose the rest. I have to be 167 to hit the 100lbs mark. Doable, if I focus. I have to get there! I joined the Gym at work today. Spoke to the personal trainer. I will go in tomorrow to do my evaluation and she will begin building a program for me. I can't wait! So, once I hit 100 down. I have to wait 18 months. BUT it will be covered. Had I not been screwing around the last 3 or 4 months I would have already been there. Guess I know what I have to do now.

my new insurance WILL consider me for the plastic surgery!! I just have to get with the Dr. and get the process started. they will pay 90% if im approved. it will probably be awhile before it can happen, but wow... i will be able to afford it! how flippin cool is that!? my PS surgeon will submit it as a basic TT but does the whole abdomen while she is in there... tightens everything up the whole way up! she submits it as the other so insurance will pay though... too cool. just got done doing weights and ab work tonight... a bit of yoga tomorrow I am doing my day 3 of my Couch to 5K (week one will be done!) got to get the rest of this weight off so I can get my flat perfect tummy (haha, yeah right!) hey Ms. Jackie, Jill, and Steph

Hey ladies!!! So glad to hear the preggo's are doing good! Nikki you make sure you keep drinking! We need you good and strong when the little guy gets here. I can't wait to be introduced :mad2: Steph - I hear you on the head ache... i had a little too much St. Patty's day fun last night too... haha. I had a killer head ache today! BUT I still went out and completed Day 2 of Week 1 of my Couch to 5K! Made me feel better to get out and sweat out the bad stuff. The web address is MP3 Podcasts I am off to bed. i am sooooooooooooo tired... talk to you all soon! Oh! Congrats on the new addition BOO BOO and CONGRATS on the 8lbs lost VABAND! woooo hooooo

Started the Couch to 5K today! been running all week and decided to start it. Was easy for day one! Cant wait to get to 5K I am still low carbing. Still doing well. havent weighed myself all week. afraid I wont see the scale move dispite my effort and THAT sooooooo discourages me... soooo, I am not looking for awhile. just going to keep working my ass off. --------------------------------- Hi claud!! so glad you are happy with the move and loving chicago! I have to come visit you some time this summer! We can go to some kick ass Chicago clubs... you do the investigating and then, you and I will go break some Chicago hearts! Steph - woo hoo! soo glad the insurance was resolved. This DR is a plastic surgeon... they ALWAYS see places they want to convince you that you need to improve... that is how they make more money of repeat clients and more procedures.... they will point out every little thing if you let them... they are crazy... ha vaband - congrats on the compliment

oh no Ms. Steph!!! :smile: you didnt sound negative at all... I just wanted everyone to know that they are not alone... I am right there in the mess with you all :wink: no matter what you keep telling me :hurray: I figured, "I know what I look like under those clothes." So, why not show you all. You've seen just about everything else. ha if you've looked at the pic... you can see my legs are soooo much smaller than my tummy it hangs in the front AND on the sides... it keeps hanging more and more as I lose the fat out from under it. I'd be 3 pants sizes smaller without the skin there. THAT is why I am sooooo envious of the TT and lower body lifts I see on the other threads... no matter how much I've lost... I still cant wear a bathing suit and feel normal. I don't feel good naked. It sucks.

Um, yes mam. Unfortunately, I sure do... :smile: It is pretty big if you ask me... not a small thing. It really is substantial... and that is NOT me being negative. My poor tummy was severely stretched out. I can lift it up and stick something under it. YUCK... To much info... I KNOW. I am going to be brave and post an edited picture on Yahoo... We can easily post the pics that make us look good. But I don't mind showing the REALITY that is me. The body has got some issues. You will see how well I HIDE all the extra skin I have hanging around my middle. Believe me it IS there. I don't mind if you ladies see. That is what this is all about. Education through experience. You will all see the ton of skin. My poor belly button is lost in it. It is all squishy where the fat is gone (of course there is more fat to lose... but, ugh) It would be so nice to have some positive news for a change. It would be years before I could afford it myself. ----------------------------- Low carbing it is going well. Still right on track! only 11 carbs today I walked about a mile and a 1/2 tonight. I have to get back to exercising. I can't wait to get out of training and get into that gym at work!

hey I never thought about the fact that my new insurance MIGHT cover a TT! that would be amazing!:thumbup: I will keep my fingers crossed!

OMG! Our Nikki is ready to GO!! You certainly sound like you are anyway! You can hear the horomones in your typing! The living room suite sounds beautiful... Why not get it? If the hubby approves and it makes your house feel a bit more put together and ready for the new addition, go for it! That baby is gonna be here before we know it! You rest and take it easy girl. And don't worry... there is still no chance of losing me in the snow! haha VAband - I had to check my clocks about 90 times to convince myself that I'd set them correctly... I am such a wuss. Steph - how is the empty house? are you going crazy yet?

We had 15+ inches of snow here! :smile2: It was crazy. Roads are kinda cleared off now. I sure hope they are ok for me to get to work tomorrow. WHAT A MESS!

EEEEKKK!! :tongue: We have a blizzard warning! That I just drove home from work in! Thank god I made it. That was a crazy experience. I was supposed to try to get together with my Marine this weekend, but I won't be going ANYWHERE this weekend apparently! Hope you are all safe at home and having a great weekend! VABAND - CONGRATS!!! on those pants girl! awesome! Steph - So glad you had fun with the daughter :tt2: It has to make you feel good to see her back to her old self. That is a big step after a break up.

Steph - so funny you should bring my marine up. He actually just got ahold of me today. He is home and wants to get together. We havent talked in over a month... sooooo that is pretty good timing on your part. ha. He is as yummy as ever I am sure. Chocolate and all.... hahaha - too bad I am low carbing! hehe Speaking of which... man. I must be doing this right. Remember the beauty of: - Gas - Mud Butt... (wasnt that NAT word!!??) I sure remember what it was like for months after surgery now. I must be doing this right this time. I sure hope the scale starts moving like it did after surgery! Welcome Lady Bug, just read along and jump right in - most of us have been together since December of 2006 sooooo you have yourself a pretty crazy group. You are more than welcome. Just throw your 2 cents in and ask any questions you want! BOO BOO - it is only Tuesday night! You should still have the rest of the week left for your vaca right!!?!? They do seem to go tooooo fast though don't they?? VAband - tell me about it!!! soooooo awesome.... i just want to work and live at the gym for an hour EVERY day. No excuses now! STEPH #2 comment: Haven't seen my trainer yet!!! BUT a girl can dream... are personal trainers chocolate covered!?!? hehe

Work is great! They have their own high tech gym on-site! PERSONAL TRAINER INCLUDED!!! How fippin' awesome is that!!?!? I can't wait to get out of training and get started! The drive is actually nice. I just am not home with my doggy much. She is going through withdraw. She just looks so sad :shades_smile: my poor baby. I wish I could take her with me. I love the furry little mutt so much! I will write me later... going to go walk my puppy!

My fingers are crossed for you mamma! Good luck with the interview! I am OFF!

I start my new job tomorrow morning at 8am - wish me luck ladies. The low carb thing is going great... I am doing very well with my calories per day as well... I am only at about 500 today and I've eaten plenty to keep me full. So, as long as I focus... things should start moving again. Somewhere along the way, I just lost my inspiration.

JackieL - Welcome aboard! If you can keep up with all of our strangeness then you are in the right stop. We have our down time and up time.... half the discussion isn't about weightloss.... although, it usually is related somehow :laugh: You are more than welcome though. Most of us were banded in December of '06 - but I believe BooBoo was a few months before that and we have others like Faith that we've picked up along the way. So, jump right in! JillRN -- hehe, that was the first thing I thought too! We must both have hilarious brains... hehe BooBoo - You should post some picturs of what you are making :drool: I just took up knitting and have made 2 hats... and 1 scarf... it is something to pass the time and it is fun. VAband... so how is that apartment coming?!? hehe, if you are anything like I was for the past month. It probably isn;t clean yet... haha. I just got on a whim and started going mad in here. It finally looks pretty good. Feels much better. Nikki - OHhhhh, you poor thing. I know you have to be going mad. Your horomones are doing triple time on you right now... and there is the impatience of just wanting the little guy to come already. Frustration is probably something you've got with you all day, everyday. Your hubby is trying to make you behave and you are probably just getting more and more annoyed while he is doing it... hehe. I hope he makes it through to the big day! and you don't have him tied up in a closet somewhere... hehehehehehehe I am so excited for you and happy and PROUD of you. You've done so well. Keep us updated.

Yuck, I am so out of shape already... you wonder how it can happen that fast!? it does. My legs were itching like crazy from walking. I looked it up it is caused by the capillaries in the legs... when you exercise alot or moderately. They are always dilated and allow good blood flow. When you sit on your ass (like me the last 2 months) they shrink up. So, when you try to get moving again and your body temp goes up... you feel like your legs are gonna itch off! YUCK! So, that was my cue. I better get excerising... It has been so easy to be lazy though. I never thought I would get lazy again, but I did. It wont be hard to get started. I don't know why I fell out of love with my running, walking, biking, elliptical machine... but I did. I just groan inwardly every time I think about doing it. I am just tired of doing it all alone. Wish I had an exercise buddy. Have a good weekend everyone!

I am doing NOTHING! haha... wild life, I know. I think I am going to go take a walk in a bit, and I need to open a new checking account. wow, hold me back... pretty intense plans

Yeah, I finished cleaning today... wow, my apartment has never been this clean. I am almost done with a whole day of low carbing... I've had 22 carbs today. So, that is my limit. I will have to eat some meat later if I get hungry. A porn star name!?!? hahahaha - that figures!

Booboo - UGH cookies... when the hell did I get a sweet tooth!?!? I NEVER ate sweets before and now the sound of ice cream is sooooooo appealing. I normally have no desire for sugar and in the last month, I have sure been craving it. Sweet Hot - I know what you mean about so far away. I know I've come so far, but I look in the mirror and I am still fat! UGH. So, frustrating. I think part of my problem is that I've lost some muscle tone becuase I've been sitting around like a bump on a log. I haven't exercised. I need to get back to it. I too am low carbing. I am on day 2 (should be day 4 but I had to start over) I am doing wel. I STARTED UP WITH FITDAY.com again! I havent tracked my food in months. So, it is time to get back to the basics. VAband - I am sending you positive "get hired" vibes. I simply didn't have a choice. My employer denied my unemployment... I have my surgery bill to pay for every month... rent... bills... I simply had to have a job... any job. I would have worked at McDonalds or pumped gas... I didn't care. I had to have income. Thank goodness, I found a great job that was in my field, but it is not my dream job. Sooooo, I am continuing to look even though I have something for now. Steph - thats right Steph. It is good to see everyone back to posting. I have fixating on the weightloss too but I am like you. I got semi-comfortable for awhile. Then, lately... I've realized like you. "I"VE COME T HIS FAR!" So, what the heck am I doing?!?! I have the tool. I spent the money. I've worked this hard! Why am I not taking FULL advantage of this? It is nice to just eat normally... not gain weight and enjoy all of those good foods in moderation.. BUT I need to lose the rest of this weight THEN enjoy things in moderation.

Hello everyone... I will write more later. I am back at my apartment and I am going to try to go catch up on everything that has happened during my time away. Claud - I am praying for you girl! I know you are following your heart and that is so brave. To make such a big move and start a new job. I know you will do fantastic and just think! You are close enough for me to come visit! I LOVE Chicago and have not had any reason to go for years! So, now I have a reason to go back. The last time I was there was when my husband arrived in this country at the airport. I need to get back and make some new memories in that city. I don't no why but I LOVE it. GOOD LUCK HONEY! Nikki! How exciting! He is going to be here before we know it! I can't believe that we have all been together long enough to experience an entire pregnancy with you! Seems like we were all just getting so excited because of our first band baby... now, we have another band baby on the way and this one ready to break his way out! Steph - I understand being lazy :smile2: I have been REALLY lazy for months now. Job starts MONDAY. So, I am hopeing to get out of my funk. I cleaned my entire apartment today. I mean gutted and reorganized and cleaned/dusted/swept everything in sight. It has already made me feel better. I too am addicted to TV though... all of my favorite shows on TV. Some of then already done due to the short season and the writers strike... ggggrrrr. Cant wait for more new episodes! Jill - so happy to hear the baby is doing so well! I had an unfill recently too. and yes WOW it makes a differences doesn't it?!?!? I couldnt believe the difference. Enjoy the food. I love being able to eat more meat and hard protein again. I think I was too tight some times. Pat that little baby on the head for me :tongue2: hehe VAband - awesome on the 8 lbs girl! I am on day one of my LOW CARB and back to EXERCISE plan. I am trying to go back to the basics and get rid of this weight. ON a Personal Note: I've been eating like a freakin' idiot lately! Seriously, sweets... high calorie food... UGH... so stupid! I think it was just me feelin sorry for myself and not caring. Then, I saw some pictures of me from college... in 2001, I was probably 80 heavier than I am now. I couldn't believe how big I was. I thought "God, how couldn't I have seen how huge I was?" So, I can't go back there... and i can't stop now. I have no excuses. I have to get on track. So, here we go girls... the never ending battle continues! Job starts Monday... I am officially in HUGE debt :huh2: I couldnt have gone another day without the job. Hope I like it. Hope my little dog doesn't go crazy while I am gone. Talk to you all soon! Brandi

WOW :ohmy: an unfill is crazy... i cant believe the things I can eat... ha I am behaving... mostly. But it is nice to be able to eat meat again. I think I need to exercise discipline and stay looser... eating hard meat PROTEIN again. I tend to eat less healthy things when I was tighter... because they went down easier. UGH, weightloss... maybe I can focus on that again soon. My new job starts March 3rd.... so I have a couple weeks to get my apartment back in order. When I get money again, I am looking into hiring a personal trainer. I need to try to get my life back again. Oh, starting over... how many times will I have to do it? :biggrin: I should be getting good at it by now.

Got a job working for CITI -- the bank. Good job, good vacation, benefits from day one... they have a gym on site too. It is a 45 minute drive though, but I won't complain too much. It will get me out of my house and away from this little dump of a town. Plus, CITI has many locations in Indianapolis. So, when I want to move up there... I will have a job. Good news. I went to the DR today. I had 1CC taken OUT of my band. They are making me go get a colonoscopy as soon as I get my new insurance on the 3rd. I also may have to have an ultra sound on my gall bladder. They think I could have gall stones. I feel a ton better eating now though with the unfill. I could eat meat again. I think I was way too tight. I can enjoy my food again... but still in small portions. I wont be tempted to eat the mushier, higher calorie choices now that chicken will go down again. I will keep you all updated... this place is so quiet since they moved us... :mad: I liked our old home. love you all...

Hey everyone. Sorry I haven't been in and a BIG sorry to steph for not emailing her back. You can all kick me :tongue2: I deserve it. I am still job hunting. I've had so many ups and downs I dont know where to even begin. I am interviewing to work as a telecommunications office through the Dept of Natural Resources... working with cops... doing dispatch along with managing the Conservation Office. I've had 6 interviews this week... I;ve applied for over 70 jobs... I got one working for the Casino here... as a cage cashier... it sucks. It is night work, no holidays, i work every weekend... 10 hour days... 475.00 in licensing fees just to work for them... but it is a job and I am not to good to do it. So, I said yes for now and pray to find something that pays better that I would be happy doing. I am a mess :drool: had other bad news - my grandmother told me she doesn't want me living with her. mom said it is because of her illness and the medication she is on... that she isn't thinking clearly. It really hurt though. She just told me last week I could stay with her. Then, she just changed her mind. So... I have no where to go. I feel very unwanted and I feel like a burden. I haven't seen a sole since I left my job... .other than my mom and dad. I just apply to jobs and go to interviews and wait for the world stop spinning. Everyone please say a prayer for me. I need to find a better job soon. I need to get back to living life instead of what I am doing right now. Thank you all for thinking about me. I still come and read when I can. I miss you all. I will be back to normal some day.

I'm ok. just scrambling... have an interview for tomorrow. I am just really down and haven't been myself. I am feeling a bit better about things. I don't miss my old job. I am just trying to find something that pays enough to cover my bills. My grandmother that I lived with and took care of for months is bad again. I am thinking about giving up my apartment and moving back in with her to get her straightened out. I am tired of hearing the family argue about what to do when I could just go move in and take care of it. (sigh) I haven't even been at my house. I've camped out at my parents. I dont know why I dont want to be there. Maybe it is because it is so close to my old work. I just havent wanted to be alone. (ugh) I need to get straightened out. I haven't been able to sleep (my insomnia is back). So, i've been taking benedryl every night to go to sleep. Anyway, life could be worse. I am ok. I am not doing good, but don't worry. I will find something. I just may be losing my apartment in order to get back on financial track. I don't have a savings thanks to my surgery. I spent every penny I had on it. Thank you so much for thinking about me. I am reading and keeping up with all of you (hugs) I promise. I just dont have much time to get on here, and haven't really been in the mood to do much chatting. Love you all though! Claud have fun in Chicago hon! Hello to everyone! jill - i blend everything up... you are sooooo not any weirder than me sassy! long time no see! steph - another fill wouldnt hurt might as well since you got the band - we all forget to us it sometimes (i think) I hope you get feeling better! sweethot - watch that knee girl! i messed mine up last year and it took 8 months to heal completely... BOOBOO - (hugs) love you girl. Get professional help on this one girl. Sometimes life hands us things that are just too big for us to deal with on our own and there is nothing wrong with having someone else step in to help sort everything out. I totally understand what you mean by MORE problems now that your weight is gone. I have the same thought. It DID just uncover more issues for me too. Like everyone has said, if there is anything that I can do. just let me know. VAband - I have my fingers crossed for you. One of us has to get some good news sooner or later!! ha. So, I am hoping it is YOU! Good luck with the gentleman Nat - Im here honey :eek: so glad you are still checking in. I am just so down in the dumps. I promise to be back more once I get through this mess of a life I have right now. I will be back in full force as soon as things get sorted. I promise! faith - I totally have pureed baked beans too... ha. they were yummy - I ain't afraid to say it! looked like puke, but tasted like heaven... HAHA