Jopala

Silry, I can somewhat relate. I had complications on my surgery day with the 9.75 band, so my doctor had me stay overnight in the hospital and have the larger VG band installed the following day. Talk about disheartening, right from the start I was in trouble. After two surgerys and a follow up, I went to my first supposed fill appointment. I was still swollen and losing weight following all instructions. At the first appointment the Dr. told me all was well and he was happy with my progress and did not make a fill. (I wa still losing and feeling good) I was told that I was fully healed and should folllow the solid food guidelines. After a few weeks, I had no restrictions. I waited a few more weeks for trying in vain to follow the guidelines, but I was always hungry, in fear, unrestricted and couldn't even have a beer (or soda) to drown my sorrows. I then made an appointment for a fill. It was the week before New Years. I expressed my concern with the Dr. telling him about having no restriction, eating all I want, etc, he told me not to worry. I was told (I thought) I was filled with 5cc's and assured that 5cc's would cause significant restriction. I was sent home to return in two months for a check. After the two months I still had no restriction and was gaining weight. I got depressed. This depression, coupled with a work related injury, spiraled into a deeper depression. Being able to eat as much as, or more than I had before the surgery and a fill, was devastating. I gave up hope and convinced myself that I could not lose weight no matter what I tried, even with the lap band. This furthered my downward spiral and made me afraid to return to the Dr. for fear of being branded a failure. After several months of depression, on this past Thursday, I made the decision to see the Dr. At the appointment, I learned that I had gained back all but three of my pre-op weight, but I already knew this by how my clothes fit. (I don't weigh myself, because I already know I'm overweight) The Dr. said to me , you only have 2cc's in, where have you been. I told him about the lack of restriction and feeling like a failure, but he already knew this, because I was not the first. I was mistaken about the size of my first fill and it caused me to spiral. He then filled me from 2 to 5cc's. Since Thursday, I now have to wonder whether I am filled too much, as I can barely eat anything. I have now graduated into the family of PB, Slime, Throw-up, etc. I am just now, after more than six months, learing about the band and it's inticacies, but relishing it. So, long story short, before youn give up hope, go see the Dr. Oh, and stay away from soda, you'll get used to it. Good luck.