coconut

Well, I am 20 and got my band put in 2 years ago. I can not begin to explain what has happened since then butI ended up having surgury again over the summer for some problem that still hasn't been explained to me by my doctor but whatever. I just have the hardest time dealing with everything, I mean I am so happy to get thin and healthy but I have been so miserable every since I had surgury. I don't know how to word this proberly but my biggest problem is with other people. When I was in high school, I had a lot of friends and they all loved me for who I was because they were all the most beautiful people ever but I never got any attention from guys and so many of my friends would tell me OMG YOU'D BE PERFECT FOR MY FRIEND JOSH/BEN/MIKE......... but none of them would ever want to date a fat girl. Now I am losing weight, and I still have more to go and I feel like I can't date anyone until I lose allllllllllll of the weight because I am affraid of being rejected and then I don't know. Does anyone even know what I am talking about? Like most of the time I dont even realize a guy likes me because I assume they are my friend, and like before, why would they want a fat girl. Mind you I am MUCH LESS fat now, but still fat and I just hate that.