wannabhappy

Hello fellow missourians, I am a 41 year old mother of a teenage daughter that is into everything in school.....i go to all her games and all...BUT ..most of all if she wants to go to the fair or water park or whatever...i dont take her ....it is always someone else that does things with her like that...and i want that part back in my life.....i have had alot of medical problems and now.. all that it seems that i do is gain gain gain....i am 5 ft and weighs 265 pounds... so you can imagine i am as wide as i am tall....i am not happy with myself...have low selfesteem and most of all when we take pictures i delete the ones with me in them..so other words i take me out of the family past. i have tried all and i mean ALL weight loss stuff...and no luck......I am so scared of heart and other problems...in fact am scared to death...i have been for awhile thinking about the lap band...but wonders what kind of process it is..how long recovery?....i would love any kind of info on surgery....how long does it take..how long in hospital....this is not something that i want to do...but have to for my life!