mrsaxlrose

Hi everyone I find forums like this so hepful, but to be honest I usually try to stay away from posting on them as I know that posts like the one I am about to write can lead to a torrent of critisism. I am going to be very honest in this post as I want help not judgement. For several years I have had a serious addiction to food. I eat to the point that I can barely move and feel reall sick. As soon as this feeing SLIGHTLY subsides and I feel as if I can sqeeze in another morsel of food to top myself up again, thats exactly what i do. If I make myself 6 rounds of toast, as soon as I start to eat the second sice, I begain to panic that this will not be enough to satisfy me and therefore put more bread in the toaster. I am terrified of being even slightly hungry, I plan my life arounf eating and i even wake up in the middle of the night to eat. I have a huge appetite and I eat like a pig by stuffing food into my mouth like a savage. I hate the feeling of being too full up but at the same time I seem to crave it. I have tried lots of various diets both sensible and crazy. Anyway, to cut to the real reason for posting, I had a lap band fitted 2 weeks ago today. I was doing ok until yesterday when I was so starvingthat I had a cheeseburger and fries. I know how bad this is and nobody forced me to do it but I didn't care, I just lost control and ate it.:bored: Please no judgements, I just want to know am I alone in not being able to stick to the post op diet ? Thanks for reading this Mrs Axl Rose