ALISIA

i don't know if this will help but when i am in class and i am really dressed i drink until i am full and write do what i am feeling and why. i don't write it the whole time because i am taking class notes too but when it pops into my head i put it down. i do the when i am on my computer i keep word or a notepad ready at all times. after awhile you start to see a pattern and understand your behavior more. after you see the patterns it is easier to come up with solution that are healthy for you

my mother was 5'5 95ibs after 2 children. it was her pregnancy with my that made her reach 135ibs..lol she used to get on my case a lot. i know she meant well but every time she said something about my eating it just made me more hungry. over the past year she has learned to be supportive in better ways. she knows how badly i want to lose the eight so i can be healthy and enjoy college with out people making fun of me. i am happy that i lost 120ibs over the past 2 years. and with the sleeve i will be able to lose a 130ibs which would put me at 150ibs. i have been that small sice like 4th grade..lol my goal is to lose the weight before my graduation in 2011. i know the style of dress i want to wear and the color. :Cry: all those guys that make fun of me now are going to wish they could get some of this. because i am cute but when i am smaller and i put my cloths the looks on guys faces takes away any doubt i might have. if only i could be so self assured all the time..lol congrads to all on your work so far and congrads for what is to come.. we can and we will do more than you can imagen.

:tongue_smilie::biggrin0:Hi, hope everyone is well. i am trying to prepare myself in every way i can for my new life:biggrin0:. so i am trying to come with many alternatives to eating in a unhealthy way. i know it is different for everyone but the ideas i hear can help me to think of more. what do you do when you feel like eating badly? how do you stay in control of your eating habits?

I asked because someone asked me and i didnt know. also, i wanted to know how to plan around it if i ended up with diarrhea. i have issues with public bathrooms "my sh*t is shy" and i was not sure if it affects bm's like bypasses do. working around that while living in a dorm would be hard. but it sounds like by the time i start school it will be normal or less frequent. thank you all sorry i ask a lot of questions i just like to prepare and plan for everything so i am ready. this site has been very helpful.

Hi, i have another weird question sorry. Do you have more frequent bowel movements after the sleeve or is it just about the same as before?

it took about 2 years of hard work. when i first wanted to have surgery no one would work on me because of my psych history and i was gaining very quickly they thought i would kill myself if i cant eat lol. i did find a doctor that was willing to work with me " the same doc i am using now" but i couldnt afford more than one week of the liquid diet so i just never went back. i knew i could lose it because i did lose 150ibs in one year before it just wasnt the healthiest way so when i got depressed it came back with and extra 75ibs. i joined a jim which was hard because i was kind of big for everything in there lol i got a personal trainer, started eating good foods and cut down on the bad stuff until i just didnt want them any more. anyone can do you just have to want it so badly that it becomes a part of you. i had my goal i knew what i wanted and i just would not let anything stop. i wrote down everything that passed my lips and the emotions behind it worked it out in therapy found healthy alternatives. it was not easy i weight myself every week measured every month. there was a lot of ups and downs. when i ran out of space on my credits for the gym i found ways to work out at home. i getting the sleeve now because if i dont do it now insurance wont pay if my bmi goes below 40 and i still have issues with over eating when my head is not in the right place i am bipolar with ptsd. loosing is only half the battle keeping it off is really hard and i dont want to risk gaining again. it is a had choice to make but it is the right one. the best way to reach any goal is to educate your self. buy nuitrition books reseach everything learn what your body needs why it needs it what it does with it and how to make it work better. take a class on it make your health your life and happieness.

Long Island NY but i am not banded i am going for the sleeve but this site has more young people and more posts hehe. hope no one minds that i use both sites

the doctor i am using only requires 3 nights as well

i am in therapy. the world is safer that way lol i have worked on a lot of my issues but the food one just keeps coming up in one form or another. i think the surgery is going to help my therapy because i will be forced to tackle it head to head with the sleeve as support. i know part of the food issue comes from my traumatic background and my relations with people. that is also why i want to lose the weight because it is like i am carrying my past and all its pain with me a the time. i use food to both south as well as punish myself. if i think about as a psychology student " i am a psych and social work major" i understand it, the abuse me claiming my body , keeping safe, needs not being met during the oral stage etc.. which makes it feel even worse because i really do know better and i learn more and more with each course. but when it come to my own behavior i am the slowest kid in the neighborhood lol. i know it takes time and that is what the sleeve will do for. give me time to really think before i act as well as allow me to completely recondtion myself in ever aspect of food and life. it will be like carrying my therapist everywhere i go. i dont know how people could go threough such a big change with out going to therapy. i do think the best therapist are the one that have worked on themselves fearlesly and i want to be good. the main thing that i am worried about is keeping positive andduring the hard times and making the new life work at home alone.

I hope so because my binging is just a brief impulse and i just stuff myself until i am full. me and food have a love hate thing. this is my second time losing 100s of pounds. the first time i developed bulimia and a diet pill problem. the only good thing about it is that a lot of the healthy eating habits from my smaller days never left me. i still dont like greasy stuff or white bread and most of he time i am good at controlling myself. but not when i am too happy or too low so my weight is always up and down. one week i eat too much the next i dont eat enough. i am bipolar with ptsd so i am all over the place and my wait has a big effect on my stability. that is what worries me about the surgery i hope i dont get too bored and stress out. i will feel much better when i know for sure the insurance will cover it, right now its at 95% sure. and i do have support in some sence but not really. i dropped most of my friends "i needed to their were no good" and i dont go anywhere"i am visualy impaired from albinism so i cant drive". my mom is supportive but she has no clue she was 95ibs after 2 kids then she had me and that changed. she has never had any addiction out side of work. she is such a goody goody.i have told too many people because it is seen as the easy way out and i dont want people to monitor everything i do. and that is my other worry will i be well enough for school in september? sorry for ranting i am the queen of TMI and i love to talk its the only thing that helps. thank you allfor helping

unisom is a very good sleeping pill i like it more than prescription stuff and it doesnt make you feel drugged up the next day

i am mostly worried about the exercise portion. the only things i like to are yoga dancing and martial arts. but since i know that about my self i registered for ballet i the fall. once school start i will be ok because i will be too busy to think about food and i will be walking all day. i am getting nervous as the day get closer. i know this is the best thing for me to do because i can lose weight but i cant keep it off. also, i dont know how eating is going work while at school i dorm so i hope i can eat some solids after the first month. i am not too worried though because i can go a long time with out eating i am more of a binger.

Hi everyone, does the heartburn go away after some time or is it a part of having a sleeve?

:biggrin0:Hi, I know it is different for everyone but how many ibs a week do you lose? Is there a certain amount that you should be losing or you must be doing something wrong?

thank you now i feel much better about it.

:biggrin0:Hi, I get sleeved July 21 i am very exited. I only worry about how much pain I will feel and for how long and if I will feel the staples?:laugh: I know I will get medication but how much does it work and how long will I need it for? I really don't like feeling drugged up and i am usual good about pain . How soon can I doing things like go shopping? THANK YOU ALL !!!!!:redface1: