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I was banded this Monday June 8th, 2009. I find myself having a hard time psychologically dealing with this new change. I know I did a good thing that is going to change my life but I can't help feeling down and questioning if I did the right thing. Has anyone felt the same way? I found myself crying last night and this morning and just feeling anxiety and fear, wondering if I can actually do this. Especially the 4 weeks of pureed and smashed food. I would love to talk to someone who may have had the same feelings and has had the band for a while and can tell me what to expect

Hey Carrie, I haven't been on much because with the way I was feeling I didn't even want to think about Lap Band. But in the past 2 days I have been feeling better. I haven't been having any panic attacks and I actually got some sleep. I had my first post op visit today and in 10 days i'm down exactly 20 pounds so I went from 277 to 257! That's exciting atleast. How have you been

Hi John, thanks for the advice. When did you get your band? I'm trying to hang in there. If it wasn't for the panic i'm experiencing I would be ok.

Hi Carrie! I have to tell you my weekend was horrible. I hope I overcome this. I have been following the diet, walking and using the eliptical machines in the gym. But mentally I am a mess. I cried all weekend. I mean hysterical. I have been haivng panic attacks where I feel like I am going crazy. I can't sleep thru the night. I go to sleep then 2 hours later I jump up from my sleep in a panic. Heart racing, thoughts racing thru my head and I can't stop them. And I can't calm myself down. I have never in my life felt this way and it's so scary. Today only makes a week and a day. I hope this goes away cause i'm miserable. I was so scared I called my surgeon yesterday he said that medically i'm fine and maybe I should speak to someone. I spoke to the nutritionist and she said my body is detoxing right now becasue i'm so used to my old high carb diet. But I just don't know. I hope this goes away. I mean I tell myself, you did a good thing, you are gonna be healthy for once, you're gonna look good, have more energy and you can even have the band removed when you want if need be. I already called my insurance company to see if they cover it. that's how scared i am. I even weighed myself yesterday and I went from 277 to 260 so you would have thought that would have brightened up my day but still last night I woke up in a panic. I just don't know. On a brighter note how was your weekend?

I have been on this website pretty much all day! I didn't get any work done! But everyone has been so helpful and really calmed me down alittle. So i'm gonna jsut hang in there and take it day by day. I'm sure I will check back over the weekend. By the way my name Lisa. It was so was nice meeting you and thank so much for all of your advice

I really hope that doesn't happen to me. I'm already a nervous wreck. All I need is to feel like I can't breathe!!! So i'm gonna keep in mind to chew alot and slowly

emjay, thank you for your advice. I have been feeling terrified and and just worried that I made the wrong decision. I am hoping that once I get past the 4 weeks of pureed/smushies that this fear and anxiety will go away. I also have this huge fear of now having this band permanently in my body, which I should of thought about before. But I really didn't think I would feel this way after the surgery.

Oh my, that doesn't sound very fun! Is it painful? Or you jsut basically throw your food up and then feel fine afterwards? I'm not looking forward to that

You all have been so helpful to me today. Thanks for putting me at ease. If you don't mind i'm going to add you all as friends being I am new to this site.

I am going to pick up the refried Beans and eggbeaters tonight at the grocery store. I will give them a try this weekend. Do you know what "pb" means? I have read that on this forum and don't understand the term, i'm still learning

Catherine55, thanks for the advice. I really need it right now. So once I get my first fill if I truly hate it, I can take it out and I would be free to eat just as I did before the surgery with no restrictions? (hopefully that will not be the case) But I need that comfort there to get me through this, because I am terrified. Also when you do get a fill how is the eating different? Is it hard to tolerate certain foods? Can you eat normal just in moderation?

lindsayb I am sorry you are feeling that way but at the same time i'm glad that i'm not the only one. So far this website has been a great help. This morning I was crying my eyes out wishing i never got the surgery and now I am starting to feel better. Thanks for your help!

Thanks, i'm sure you will hear from me alot as I get through this. I am also online Mon-Fri from 9-5 at work. It's so hard for me because I have been such an unhealthy eater for so long. This morning I had to force myself to eat yogurt. It was the first time in my life eating it and I didn't really like it but I needed to eat something. This is a big struggle for me. But let me know how you do with the chicken? How are you eating it? Mashed up?

Hi Sue, thanks for the advice. If you don't mind me asking. How long have you had your band? How much weight did you lose? And once you start eating solid food again is it still a very strict diet? Or can you pretty much eat anything you want in moderation? Does your food go down normal? Or do you feel different when eating?

Also, while I am thinking about it. What did you eat for the first 2 weeks on pureed food? Yesterday was the first day that I was able to start the pureed diet. I didn't do too well. Everything I tried I didn't like so I basically ate nothing all day and wound up feeling light headed and dizzy. I think that contributed to my panic attack. Today I had yogurt and unsweetened applesauce for breakfast. For lunch I am planning on having some ground beef chopped up as small as it can be with some mashed potatoes. I can't really handle pureed meat.

That's funny the first person to reply to my very post and we already have so much in common! I will definetly keep in touch and keep you posted, please do the same. It is so much easier when you have support from people that know what your going through and have the same fears. Thanks again!

Congrats! That's good atleast the weight is coming off. I am 31 from Brooklyn, NY. Right now I am 277 and I would love to be around 140! I am not going to weigh myself until my first post op doctor visit which is next Thursday. I live a block away from a huge park with a nice track. So the day after I came home from the hospital I started walking around the track a few times and now i'm going to do it everyday. Next week when i'm feeling better I am going to start working out in the gym. You have been so helpful to me and it is sooooo appreciated

My brother was also banded a week and a half ago. He told me in the first week he experienced the same feelings. I guess I need to hear it more from other people to make sure I am not alone. But you have been so much help for me this morning. If you don't mind me asking. How old are you? Where are you from? And have you lost any weight in 3 weeks since being banded?

Thanks for the advice. I'm sure I will be messaging you! I really need support from people who are also going through this too. I keep telling myself I did the right thing and I will feel better but I really didn't expect to feel this down. I also was terrified at the fact that i put this foreign object in my body and kinda freaked out hoping I am not causing any damage to myself in the long run. Do you plan on keeping the band in forever? That scares me a little.