elissa

Hi all.. My name is Elissa, I'm in Pittsburgh, PA and I got my band put in about a month ago, and just had my first fill on Friday. I had a lot of pain at first, and was on serious painkillers for about 2 weeks. I still have the urge to overeat, although I did get sick for the first time yesterday, and I'm hoping the hell I've been through since then will dissuade me from overeating/eating the wrong things/eating too fast again. I'm still not sure I made the right decision. Everywhere I turn, I have people tell me that they know someone who got the surgery and didn't lose the weight... that would be the worst thing in the world. This was a huge decision and a huge sacrifice for me, and it better work!! Why are people so negative? I understand I may never achieve my goal weight, and that's ok, but I need to lose 80 pounds at least (started at 245/5'4"). I'd love to get to 140/145 but I will understand if I don't. I am really overwhelmed and I feel like crying. No one told me it would hurt this much. No one told me I'd still have the cravings. I really think I made a bad decision. Is there anyone else out there that feels the same way or has in the past? Please help. All alone, Elissa