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Great for you!!

I am on day 4 of the liquid diet...but I have cheated...the 1st day I had a salad because by about 2pm I was SO HUNGRY....I figured a salad was the least of the "evils"...then day #2 came around and I did the exact same thing...I was thinking at the time "maybe I could just do protein shakes and a salad every day..." but I know that is against the "rules" then last night my husband and I had a "date" - he works all the time so I thought to myself - "what's one meal??" then I was doing really well today until I just ate some pizza. If I am "cheating" so much...I must not really want this...but I do want it...but I do not know what is wrong with me...I think I was reacting to that "deprived" feeling I just want to kick myself

I know exactly what you are talking about...I am scheduled for surgery June 3rd...I start my pre-op diet the day after tomorrow. As I laid in bed last night, full of fear and anxiety (and mad at myself for telling anyone that I was going to do it, because now I WANTED OUT - too afraid to change??)I almost rationalized my way out of going through with it - thinking to myself: "well, no one is MAKING me do this...I do not HAVE to do it...I am not all that unhappy, am I?? So why don't I wait a little while and start an excercise program and start eating right and THEN have the surgery" So when I awoke this a.m., I was going to call and cancel my final appt with the nutritionist and nurse (who are two of the greatest ppl I have ever met form St. Joseph's in Chicago)... I was going to come up with some phony line about how I couldn't make it and then eventually I would have ended up cancelling it altogether, I know. But something got me out of bed and made me get to the office for this visit. I have not stuck to any "diet" and I really have not stuck to an excercise regimen up until now, so what would make me change now? I am going to go ahead with the surgery and incorporate diet and excercise slowly but surely into my life. I have been trying to eat in a way that is a combo of my old ways and hopefully my new ways: trying to introduce a Protein shake instead of a mcdonald's Breakfast...drinking cristal light instead of diet pop - - honestly, you can free yourself from pop. I am living proof. what I did was I weened myself off of pop by drinking soda Water or seltzer H2O for the last year or so...now I have weened off of that and I just buy and drink regular water...I am addicted to it now. What I am trying to say is...try one or 2 things that will be on your preop and post op diet as a substitute...you can see how full you feel and for how long... I am by no means an expert - in fact I am so scared too...but I am going go for it...just think if we had done this a year ago - we would be one of these valient ppl on this blog who are encouraging us!! just try it and see how it works..I have a feeling it will change your life and mine!! Best of luck and do not give up!! I really believe that if we put our minds to it we can do it. Give it a try!! Monica

I am so very sorry for your loss and for your pain. I am new to this blog / site, and I just read your post. I needed to reach out to you, as a stranger but as a fellow human being to say that I pray that your pain is eased with time and that your memories will keep you going and all that you learned from/with your friend Kim will last forever. May God bless you. Monica