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Ok, I dont get it!!! I have been on liquids since Thursday night and here it is Sunday and all I lost was 1 lb total for all of that!! I was just so sure that I would lose about 2-3 lbs during that phase...Oh well, I will take it as it comes but that sure is discouraging

thank you rroswelltx...it feels good to hear from someone that is going thru the same thing and understands...i am hoping to get out of my funk here before too long and get back on the path of where I should be going

I have been away from the site for quite some time and am hoping that coming back here and having to account for my actions might help me along...I got to a loss of 77 lbs and then dont know what happened...It kinda feels like I hit a brick wall....I just keep losing and gaining the same 5 or so lbs no matter what I do...I even went in and had my fill checked and he got me as full as I could go...I would absolutely love to lose another 30-40 lbs...I can pretty much pin point when I stopped losing too, I had to start working 2 jobs and ran out of time to work out like I use to...I know, there lies my problem and I probably just needed to write it out for all to see...I have just got to find some time to get back to taking care of ME!! Well, I just wanted to pop in and cry for a few minutes...I am so proud of how well everyone is doing!! Keep Up The Great Work Everyone!

thanks, i kinda thought about that too then i got to thinking that i havent lost any weight since my last fill on August 31st and i hate to go back to the dr for another fill without a loss...i guess i just feel like he would just look at me like i was a crazy loser...

I am trying to find a new board to call my home...I was banded about a year and a half ago and did really well for the first year then nothing....I have been fighting the same 5 lbs since around May and dont know what to do...I did go in and had a small fill but it still dont feel like it made a difference...I am really trying but seem to be falling back into some old habits since there has been no change for a while...I was hoping in the beginning that my body was just taking a break but how long does it want to hide in the closet?? I am just depressed over it all and dont know what to do...The looks from family members and coworkers when they find out that I am still having a hard time losing weight even after the band just seem to go thru me and cut into my soul...Anyone know what I mean?

Well, I thought I would check in with myself on here today...lol...I havent lost anything since April right after my last fill...At that fill the dr told me that I was almost totally closed off and that I would have to lose another 20-25 lbs before another fill..So after I lost 3-4 since that fill and nothing after I got really worried and thought I was doing something wrong...Well, I went ahead and made an appointment to go see him thinking he would go all over everything that i was suppose to be doing again and gripe me out for eating wrong and stuff like that...So they also checked my fill...When I dont have hardly any restriction and need a fill they will usually put in maybe .1 or .2 and this time they put in a .5 cc...So I guess that I needed one pretty bad...They said that even tho I wasnt losing weight that my stomache was still shrinking and was in desperate need for a fill...So, atleast I found out what my problem was this time..And I am totally excited that it wasnt just something I was doing wrong...

Barbados?? That sounds wonderful..I hope that you have a great time while your there...And thank you for cluing me in on what was going on...haha...I felt abandoned there for a minute...lol

breakfast:1 bacon sandwich on wheat lunch:nothing dinner:meat patty with a slice of cheese and the tomatoes, lettuce and pickle on the side no work out today..was too busy and went to see the inlaws so was pretty busy where is everyone...i feel kinda lonely here

I just feel like I am all alone now that I am back!!! Where is everyone??? Oh well, me writting in here is motivation enough for me for now Yesterday I had a chocolate whey drink for breakfast (as usual) lunch 6 oz bowl of a taco mix that had a corn tortilla mixed in it small bowl of chili with cheese (i know i know) got in all my liquids for the day plus some worked out for 30 minutes on my gazelle between work calls i wont know how much i have lost until sunday when i get back to work...at this point i am still working on a couple extra lbs i had gained from my lightest and had lost half a lb yesterday...i will take anything that i can at this point...a loss is a loss today so far...20 oz bottle of flavored water 2 small cups of coffee and a planned work out later since its my day off from my major job and working on some laundry which is a little work out in itself

Ok, I am officially starting over again starting today! I have gotten upset with myself for my slacking and am going to make up for it so my schedule so far chocolate whey (breakfast) salad (lunch) 35 minutes on my gazelle inbetween calls at my 2nd job (i worked it in there!!) Havent really counted my liquids today but i know that i have drank quite a bit at work and have 2 bottle of 12 oz of flavored water infront of me to drink and will be done with it shortly...Cheers, and heres to a new start!

I just wanted to stop in and just say "WOW"!!! Look at yall go!!! I am so proud of you all..Im sorry that I havent been able to post or keep up with what all i have been needing to...With as much as I have been working I have been having to kinda put my health and weight loss on the back burner for a while till we get all caught up on everything...I do see that light at the end of the tunnel getting closer to me...I have been trying to figure out how to get my workout and eating right back into my schedule but i just havent figured it out yet...i gotta be at work at 645 in the morning, leave there at 245 and have to be logged on for my other job by 330 and work till 6 then its dinner time and clean up time and there is no way that i can do without my family time of course (its the only thing keeping me sain right now, lol)...So, at some time or another I will figure something out or get a couple days in there at least during my week...But I am still at my 77 lb loss...I will gain a lb or 2 here and there then lose it again...So atleast I am able to maintain my loss...My thoughts are with you all and I am so glad that everyone is doing so well...I wanna catch up with yall so bad i can almost taste it...lol

Its just wonderful to be away for a while then come back and see that I am still missed and thought of...I miss you guys deeply and the support that I recieved from each and every one of you....I wanted to check in today cuz its basically a very important day for me today...Yep, its my 1 year bandversary today...I will cherish each bead of sweat that I lost during this year and each blister on my foot and tear shed cuz that just helped me get to where I am today...76.5 lbs lighter and feeling wonderful...Things are starting to turn around for me a little bit...I actually see a light at the end of the tunnel...I think that I will keep up with the other job too some just to get ahead and keep it in my back pocket for when I get to retire...Its nice to know that I already have something to fall back on in my later older saggier years...lol...On another good note, I have been staying really busy the last couple weeks...My brother actually ran into (by accident) his first true love ever from bible school when we were little kids...They have always wanted to be back together thru their lives but it just wasnt the right time either for him or for her...Now, 1 month later and we are planning a wedding for July 8th and its just like having a sister back in the family...And the big kicker is........the wedding is at my house...lol...such a great honor for me but also alot of additional work to get everything just perfect...I told her to just sit back and I would plan and set up the entire thing for her...Just give me your color scheme and be gone with you...lol...There is just too much stress involved in getting married alone without having to worry about setting it all up too...So that is my wedding present to her...A stressfree wedding...Just show up and jump the broom and be gone with you girl!!!!!! lol...And on a sad note, since I started working this second job and not having time to work out I havent been able to workout at all and have just teetered back and forth on the same couple pounds...Hey, but thats ok with me!!! I am a heck of a lot better off now than I was at this time last year at 312.5 pounds!!!! I will take my 236 anyday!!! I was just wanting to check in with you guys because you are all like family to me and I give lots of big hugs to everyone!!

Thank you...Its nice to come back and know that I have been missed...I for sure miss everyone on here and wish that I could come back alot more than I do...I am still trying to get use to my second job and just finished up my second complete week of working the second job...Its going pretty good and even got my first pay check...Of course I havent had the time to cook like I should and havent had the time to work out at all...I just stay so tired and spend all my extra time trying to catch up on things that I am behind on...After I get started good on this new thing of mine I will be back more than now and try to figure me out a schedule to get some working out done...But for now, I am just glad that I am not gaining anything and being able to maintain my loss...Best wishes to everyone and big hugs!!!!! Miss you all

OMG, I disappear for a week or 2 and feel like I am back here with alot of strangers...Look at those losses for yall...I am so proud of each and every one...Geez... Well, I have been just basically staying even, then gain a couple pounds then end up spending the rest of the week getting rid of the gain...But then again with the 2 jobs now I havent had time to work out or really worry about what I eat...But I am hoping that things will get back to normal here shortly and I can start losing again... Just 21 more days till my bandversary and in the beginning of this journey I was hoping to be totally done by the end of the first year but things never go as we plan, so so what if its going to take me about a year and a half...I will deal with it and am very happy with what I have done in a year...I wouldnt trade it for the world I better get going and get busy...I just wanted to check in with yall and let yall know that I am still mentally with yall every day...lol...Keep up the great work

<p>I just want to say thank you to everyone for their support and encouragement...I know that I have been gone for a while...I have been training on the computer every night for an online order taking job to do part time from home to try to get things fixed at my house...Yipee, I finished it all and was hired...I should start working on or after the 23rd when my new phone line is added to the house...As for my husband, he just drives me crazy...The day he was suppose to quit and look for another job his boss shows up out of nowhere and acts like nothing is wrong...That was 2 bounced paychecks ago...He has been sticking it out at his job in hopes of things getting back to normal, so I just dont know whats going to happen day to day right now...But such is life, and I dont want to burden everyone with my troubles...</p> <p> </p> <p>As for the weight loss I got to 74 lbs then got stressed and gained about 3 back and am working on getting back to my 74 either tomorrow or Sunday...It been so hard to be good...I feel bad for being off the site for so long and I have really missed everyone...I hope that everyone is doing wonderful and shedding all that extra poundage that keeps us shackled to the ground...Before long we will all be light and flying high</p> <p> </p> <p>I can not stress enough of how proud I am of every single person on this board and how great everyone is doing...Yes, even the ones just starting because they made a great life changing choice to be healthier and thats a wonderful beginning...I love and pray for everyone on here often even if I dont get to log on as much as I use to and say it daily!!!!</p>

I want to thank you guys for checking in on me...I am inching along and its still coming off a little at a time...I have been having a hard time the last couple weeks and not able to check in as I should...The company my husband works for is going under to a point his boss isnt even showing up anymore and his last 2 paychecks bounced...So I have had alot on my mind lately and totally stressed out...But he is going to drop off his work truck today and has a couple places to go to in hopes of finding somewhere new to work...Just when someone thinks their life is going so well then its all turned upside down...Well, thats where I am for now and as if I wasnt losing enough hair from the band but now I am pulling it out myself too...Im gonna be bald!!

I dont feel any different than I did before the fill....I started eating solids again yesterday and even gained half a lb...I have heard that it sometimes takes a week or 2 for a fill to kick in so I am hoping that that is the case for me...I am just going to sit back and wait for it all to happen...lol...Come On Band!!!!!!!!!!

Well, I finally got in for my 5th fill..I am at 2.95 cc now...I havent eaten anything solid since Thursday night so today will a test of how this fill is actually going to treat me...I am just going to start out with some semi sorta small and soft stuff for today cuz Im scared...lol...I finally got over my 70 lbs and am very happy with that...I am happy for everyone, yall are all doing great!

I hope that it is something else besides MS too tho for you...Maybe some pinched nerves or something like that....4 lbs, alright for you!!!!!!!!!

<p>And now for me::: I went in for my 5th fill this morning and the dr said that I was doing great!!! I love going up there and hearing all the band storys in the waiting room...It makes me want to just go up there and sit for a couple hours even when I dont have an appt...lol...Well, anyways he filled me to a total of 2.95 in my 4 cc band so I think that I am pretty much topped off for a while...That scale weighed me 2 lbs less that what I weighed yesterday so I dont know if the scale there is just that much off or what...Its usually pretty much the same as the one that I weigh on at work...Oh well, I am on liquids till Sunday when I will go back to work and weigh in for the week...I am hoping that their scale was correct cuz that will finally put me over my 70 lb mark which was a goal for me before my new uniforms came in (and I dont see any new uniforms yet) lol</p>

Tacos? I wanna taco!!! Yall make me so dang proud!!

15 lbs!!!!...Your my hero!!!!

You worded it alot better than I did....You are just doing so wonderful...You and Tann just keep moving along and leaving me behind...lol...Oh well, atleast mine is coming off a little at a time...I might even make it to 80-85 lbs before my 1st year is up...I will be cool with that...lol

Thanks to all...I am working on it...I am still at 69.5 this morning but tomorrow morning I go in for a fill and I will get over that little hump...I was just thinking this morning about how funny it is that we can lose so much and look at it as being so little...Like when I was at 25 lbs I admired and wanted to be at 50 cuz 25 just wasnt that much...Then I get to 50 and i want to be at 75 cuz 50 just isnt that much...Its like the more that I lose the further from reality I get from actually seeing what I have really lost...Like yesterday someone asked me how much weight I have lost and I would reply "JUST 69.5 lbs"...Now this time last year I would have been exstatic to yell that number from the roof top for all to hear but now that I am there it just seems like another number to me...Does anyone understand what I am going thru??

Thank you for noticing my ticker..hehe...It just inches up when it feels like it then it takes a break for a while...I am almost to 70 lbs, I am so excited....That will put me at 5.5 lbs so far for this month...I will take it as it comes...I am going in Friday for a fill and it will help me a little bit more... Tann, I dont want you to take that as being anything negative from me about the m/e diet, I just wanted to report what she was saying...I am still all for it and am planning on starting on it on Monday with yall, but probably just a few changes...It sounds wonderful as long as that weight keeps coming off...I figure I can just take plenty of stuff to keep me regular while I am on it and I will be fine