The choices we make...
· tpoth · 01/13/09 08:08 AM
So, I guess it is time for some background now. I am 29. I am a mother of 2 wonderful and beautiful little girls. I am married to my high school sweetheart, and the 1 true love of my life. Life is great. I should be so happy. Should! So what is bringing me down you may wonder? My weight. I am fat. I AM FAT! I have been my entire life. I often think and wonder how I let myself get to this point. There are many reasons I guess. An often unhappy childhood. Years of abuse. Poor food choices in the home growing up. I am part of the generation raised on boxed and canned meals. The only thing my mother ever made from scratch was deep fried. Vegetables, what were those? Why would I want to snack on an apple, when I had cookies and chips? But, as easy as it is to blame everyone else, I really need to do some Soul searching and take a good, long look in the mirror at myself. For then the answer will truly be in front of me.
So what is so tough about the decision? Well, I really want to have the lap band. I have been researching it. Talking about it. Heck, I practically dream about it. I can't imagine going on 1 more diet that is not going to work. I have tried every one I can think of. And I have realized the cruel truth, DIETS DON'T WORK! But, am I really ready to spend that kind of money? Am I really ready to make the commitment? Do I have what it takes to stick with it? I have got to do something. If now is not the right time, when is?
- Read the Conversation
- 2 comments
- 122 views