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Not sure if anyone has mentioned this or not.I eat the carbmasters yogurt. I get it fom my local Krogers 80 cal and 12g of protein.They have really good flavors!

Thanks everyone who commented on this.I was having a very tough time,with everyones great advice and some soul searching of my own i feel like im on the right track! I love this site and so thankful for everyones support

Thanks everyone for your comments,feedback.Its a big struggle,something that i hope to take control of.Right now i feel as though it controls me.I love this site,and the support! So glad i have people to talk to who know what im dealing with.

I couldn’t decide whether or not i was going to type this up. I soon came to the conclusion,if anyone knows how i feel it would be you guys...So here goes I was banded November 06,2008. I weighed in at 356 i was 20 yrs old. I got down to 244,and as of today September 15,2010 i am at 280...Iv taken a few too many steps back...Where did i go wrong. I started having very bad acid reflux, my Dr put me on every med he could think of to get rid of it, and with no such luck, he wanted to remove all of the fluid in my band...That’s just the start of it all...There is an obvious reason as to why i needed a lap band.I was active in school,played softball,was in the marching band,VP of our high school FFA. But portion control was always my problem. I would go the whole day of school and never eat,but as soon as i was to get home,it was an after school snack,followed by dinner,usually two plates,and then after dinner snack time,which my dad,my sister and myself always looked forward to what treats my mom brought home. So as you can see with my fluid all gone...well my portions increased.. Over time my dr has added my fluid back,and for a while now i would say its considerably tight. I have hard time eating anything. I try to start the morning with a protien shake,or some sort of low fat yogurt smoothie. I really dont ever seem to get hungry much more during the day,if i happen to between 4-5 i will have some sort of nut,or string cheese. I usually do dinner around 7,thats when my dad gets home from work. (Im living at home with my parents till my houses plumbing is fixed) I have such a hard time eating anything...i result in the bad stuff...ice cream,starbucks, or if i eat somthing and i realized im having no trouble with it at all...i find myself over eating...Ill pile it on the plate,where it takes my family 15 mins to consume their meals...im left holding on to it for hours..taking a bite walking away,checking my email,watching some tv..then i go right back in again..Why is this something i feel i cant control. I tell myself everytime."Danielle,your full throw it away,feed it to the dogs,JUST STOP EATING" I dont know what happend to my control..i dont know what happend to this person who wanted so much more out of life.The girl who would get up early in the mornings and go to the gym, who looked at herself in the mirror and was so excited at the changes that were occuring..now i look at myself and am disgusted that im almost back to where i started..I feel like a failure..my dad is the most awesome person in the world,he made it happen(my surgery) i feel like iv let him down. I could see the excitement in his eyes when i used to come home for visits and he see my progress..now i just feel like he looks at me as though iv thrown the towel in..Have i? I used to say,i wanted to loose the weight to be healthy,be able to keep up with my friend.Go to the local ATV ranch(im from Tx its what we do) and ride 4wheelers without looking like a cow...Yea my health is #1..but lets be honest..i want to wear the cute Katydid tops,and rhinestone embellished miss me jeans.Iv slowly found myself going back into hiding like i did before, not wanting to go anywhere. I started dating a guy..who i of course thought i was in love with..First real boyfriend iv ever had..sure i had lots of guy friends..but this i thought was the real thing. He told me how he loved me for me,my personality,my love for others,animals...Well what a liar he was..He thought i WOULD be perfect for him if i wasnt FAT..yea those were his words. So here i am its 1:38 am. I cant sleep,i lay down everynight mad at myself for the choices i made through out the day. I say prayers at night,ask for the strength to get back on track,make the right choices. You would think my love of life,and the want to be this new person who can enjoy life to its fullest would out weigh the bad decision iv been making. Ahhhh...well now after all that rambling..maybe someone can make sense of all this..if not..atleast iv been able to vent..i must say...it feels good to get this all out.

Thanks!!! This mornings work out almost killed me..I felt great afterwards though!

Tomorrow morning i start my work out with a trainer...Things have been very difficult for me these past few months.Iv let everything iv worked so hard for just slip all away. Im very upset with myself. I know this is going to take a lot of hard work...Im ready for this:thumbup:

I was recently overfilled...it was a horrible experience..i couldnt eat anything...i had horrible heartburn..it was pure torture..So my Dr ended up taking alot of my fluid out, did an xray to make sure the band was ok..and wont refill me for a few weeks.. HELP!!! Im hungry..i want to eat everything!! I hate this feeling..i really feel like im getting off track.:tongue_smilie:

I was recently overfilled...it was a horrible experience..i couldnt eat anything...i had horrible heartburn..it was pure torture..So my Dr ended up taking alot of my fluid out, did an xray to make sure the band was ok..and wont refill me for a few weeks.. HELP!!! Im hungry..i want to eat everything!! I hate this feeling..i really feel like im getting off track.:w00t:

OK so i would really like some feed back on work out tips from everyone..I go to the gym atleast 4 out of 7 days..I do alot on the bike and treadmill..but i need help when its comes to toning these arms,thighs...and big help with this stomache...any tips would be most appreciated...thanks everyone!!:confused:

OK so i would really like some feed back on work out tips from everyone..I go to the gym atleast 4 out of 7 days..I do alot on the bike and treadmill..but i need help when its comes to toning these arms,thighs...and big help with this stomache...any tips would be most appreciated...thanks everyone!!:frown:

When i first started out..i walked for thirty minutes 7 days a week.Being 357...i was lucky i could do thirty minutes.I now walk 4 days a week for an hour,and 2 days i see a personal trainer.He is helping me tone my arms/legs.I personaly did see more of a weight loss with exercise. I understand what your going through..i too thought i was way to big to ever get to where i want to be..and slowly but surely im getting there. You will too. My dr put me on the whole clear liquid diet for 4 weeks after surgery...that was mostly chicken broth and sugar free Jello...so now..i cant stand the sight of jello...lol.. If you have any other questions just let me know.My insurance too paid for my surgery....This has been the best thing i have ever done for myself.... I wish you all the success!!

I would like to be about 170..im at a total of 112 lost right now..so i have a bout 75 more lbs to go..there coming off slowly but surely

Thanks its been a tough journey and i have accomplished alot. My highest weight before going in for surgey was 357 I am thrilled to have lost 100 lbs,but i still have more i am wanting to lose till my goal has been met.

Hey everyone My name is Danielle.I am 21 years old I was banded on November 8,2007 I have lost a total of 100lbs I have been looking for a sight where i could share my journey with others!! Cant wait to hear from yall!!