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Um they are the first thing you see over there............so look quick cause I am gonna try to delete them and move them back to my home page.............that is crazy embarrasing!! LOL

Ok I posted the pictures on the social group site........not were I really wanted them but I don't know what I am doing!! I just hope they aren't the first thing you see when you click on that site..............LOL. Let me know if you can see them now!!

I have actually told all my co workers. They were not surprized. I really think this will push in to retire but I am considering reporting him. I know he is worried about that. But I have saved all his emails!! :-) I figured it would come to this. Right now he is leaving me alone but this all happened last week. I think I have the upperhand but most of what he has done has been.........borderline stuff.........and he does that to all the women in the office........standing to close, making comments on womens clothing.......just with me he was trying to take it outside the office. The sad and ironic thing is that before he was working for the county he specialized in teen sex offenders and ran the therapy groups!! :-( Talk about psych background Reggie he is certainly using his background......... Anyway. Glad everyone is doing well. Candy you back to work this week right? Let me know how it goes. Reggie you still have two weeks right. You ready to go back yet? Riley: I had a resterant experience at Plutos salad resterant!! I know, I know.............and I had no restriction at the time. Sometimes the band just acts up I guess.......or I don't chew enough....... Christine have you updated your blog? I am anxious to see your new blog. Nicole have a fun, fun weekend.

I also have a female boss and she is fine. This guys is over her.............LOL. So anyway last week he got upset I would not go anywhere with him after work..........he wanted to to me about starting a business on the side with him.........ah right................he came in and asked if I was uncomfortable around him and if I was to stop making excuses and spit it out...........so I told him I won't go with you alone after work........we can go with my coworkers all together...........he got mad and left than started saying it was all me coming on to him...........blah, blah, blah............... Anyway he has been written up for sexual harrassment before so I really think he will leave me alone............just I worry about my job and his attitude around the office now. But this has needed to be address for years now and I did it finally!!

He does this with other people but right now I am the focus. He is trying to say he is interested in my health and being supportive.............LOL. Just you know how it goes.........standing to close, inappropriate comments and trying to arrange stuff after work...........he is married!! Come on I would love to tell his wife............but Candra he is like 60 years old!!!! I am SO NOT flattered by any of it. HE is gonna retire soon and I will probably get his spot!! Just he got really mad when I called him on it. Which to me says alot about his intentions.................. Not he just pouts...............I am trying to ignore him but I am gonna ask to be transferred to a female boss. I have worked for him for 6 years and I am tired of this.......and your right he was like this before but really, really more agressive now.................

Problem is that the male attention is from a supervisor at work........I called him on it and he denied it. Said I mistunderstood............he kept trying to arrange stuff for us to be alone together............anyway I can't lose my job and this i really uncomfortable. He is trying to say I was the one who wanted to be alone............. But anyway this has been along term issue but has gotten worse the last five months. I don't want to let it sabateuge my weigh loss or make me lose my job...... I know it sounds whiny but is starting to piss me off especially now that he is blaming me when we both know what he was doing...............

I think with either surgery you have to stay on top of things. If you mess up than you forgive yourself and get up and start all over again.......................can't beat yourself up over the past you just have to be ok with starting all over again. That said I heard the body gets used to RNY and can compensate by the small intestines starting to absorb food again and you gain weight. It is just the bodys way of trying to fix what was "purposely" broken................I also heard they were banding some RNY patients to prevent post op gain. Your friend needs a support and accountability system. Sounds like she is isolating and that is gonna do her in. She needs to get out and be with other people doing the same thing and who support her and hold her accountable to start all over again. Ok that is just my professional/social worker side talking.......I know is it hard not to isolate when you upset I do that same thing. I am probably going to start counseling soon. It was something that RObin talked about alot yesterday and some other people said it is very helpful.........when you start to lose alot of weight all the "feelings" that you have been hiding with your weight and food start shoving their way out..........one lady yesteday said she was getting angry alot more now.........like that her clothes were getting to big and she had no clothes.........she said it was what she wanted so she could not figure out why she got so upset about it...........I think this is a drastic thing and who knows what has been hidden for years that is gonna push its way out.....so far I am doing ok but this male attention sorta annoys me...........I don't like people invading my space or making me feel.........self conscious!! It is the stalker like, gawking rudeness I don't like.............but that is just part of my issues I guess. I think it is rude to just assume that women like that.........arrogant!!

Hey Riley I definetely have restriction today. I can only eat about half of what I could the day before..........oh course I already overestimated today that one last bite will kick you in the butt. I have to get over the clean your plate thing at resterants. There is a difference. HOw long it lasts I don't know but I am losing again. 215 today and I will weight again next Friday..................I think I am gonna lose the next couple of weeks. Right now I would NOT want to be any tighter. I also felt tight and pressure in my chest this morning. I thought it was left over swelling my the fill yesterday, but I till have to watch it and see it could just be a morning thing never thought about that. I may or may not want another fill in a month. I will see how it goes. I did get a really big fill of 2cc's. That will likely never happen again through. Next is 1cc than only .5 ccs after that. Dr. Baggs told me that he likes to sneak up on the sweet spot...........he said a .5 could make a HUGE difference. Anyway. I have retriction and a much better attitude about my band today. I feel like I can do this now.....

Hey Candra I have a weight watchers scale too!! You are so right I bet it IS rigged................I knew there was a reason it doesn't work in my favor!! I actually have two scaled and if they are within a pound of each other I know it is about the same as kaiser......ABOUT case I was up on their yesterday regardless!! I have a pedometer now too. I am gonna just keep it on all day to see how it goes. I got the cheap one casue like Candra I am a baby walker still!! I just want to extimate how much I walk and than try to up it everyday. I did ask Robin about calories yesterday. She told me they don't count calories post op but I kept asking her what was normal. She said 1200 is NOT normal it should be way under that if you only eating a 1/4 cup a meal...........I did find that alot of people were eating more than a cup and that they all felt ready for a fill. There were four brand new bandsters and about 8 people from last summer fall. I got alot tips from the old timers.................. Oh and Candy I was there with four people I went to pre op with...........they all said they had NO restriction and could eat anything.........one lost 12 pounds, one 15 and one 11 pounds in six weeks. So your doing well girl. But it was good to hear them complain they could eat just like before..... Ok ladies I am headed out. Want to get something to eat........shhhshh........I need a salad really, really bad today............Robin said salad doesn't fill you and that is the main problem......she said put on meat if you do eat it.....does veggie chicken count? I think.......YES!! Feeling much better today. Band is tight water going in slow but hey this is exactly what I signed up for .......... SHeena loved the crystal light popsicles!! The SF pudding I only eat one and hated it............LOL. I only like hot liquids!! Glad your doing better. Gas pain is a killer but by a week out your be much better........

Riley that is great!! I bet you get down to onderland by June 21st........... Can't wait to see everyone on the 25th!!

Hey Pam i am also logging everything again. STarted on Sunday. Just have to do it to stay on top of things.............. Robins group meeting usually gets over by 12pm or 1pm so I am guessing she goes straight back to see you........... Sore throat going around. I have been working on a cold the last three days and had a migraine......................alot of people at work have this cold. Lion King how fun!! Was it good!! I want to see that too.......... Wish someone was off today I want to get out and see a movie or something on my day off.......

ok almost 100% back to normal this morning...............temporary issue like I thought!! I still feel the band in my chest area but I can tell already it is looser than yesterday. Doesn't hurt but hard to forget about it when I feel it. I am on liquids until noon than I will try this out. I am down to 215 this morning so I am happy with that but serious I have barely ate for two days. I will see what happens today when I go back to stage 4 again............ I hope it stays tight for awhile although Dr. Baggs did say that I probably won't feel this one......well I did feel it yesterday but maybe I don't feel it the whole month. My bruise got bigger overnight but I bruised really easy since surgery. The port is sore can't sleep on that side. But Dr. Bagg said it is still swollen in there still.........still healing. Ok ladies everyone have a great day I am gonna get on the WII for awhile now that my daughter is gone to school...........Oh Dr. Baggs said watch your knees on the WII you can knock them out!! LOL...........told him I did that last week already!! Nicole you playing WII too?

Thanks Christine. I know this is sorta out of the normal. I will call Dr. Baggs in the morning if it doesn't get better. I sorta wonder if I am too tight too...........but I am only at 5ccs. I wonder if I had air in my stomach that got stuck down tehre when he tightened the band.......just hurts!! I can drink Water which is why I decided to stick it out tonight. No problems with water but I have to drink slowly again...........I was sorta back to chugging it the lst few days without a problem. ahh......at least I have tomorrow off so I can sleep in. I just ate 1/2 cup of jellow and I think that is gonna stay down..........so I will be ok I guess. Next time maybe I should take Gasx with me to the appointment so this doesn't happen again............

Ok ladies I am kinda hurting so I got up again............I figured out I have gas pain really bad again like right after surgery that is what is hurting so bad! Nicole, Riley, Christine, Pam............has this happened to you after a fill?? Sheesh this is taking a step in the WRONG direction this HURTS!! Reggie you probably know exactly where I am at girl!! LOL. I can fill the band and it is tight so make that is why all the gas.................darn I wish I had some gasX left.........I am gonna have to resort to pacing the backyard!! Seriously only me, this could only happen to me!! LOL!! Downward dogs are probably in my near future...........LOL>

to see my album click on my name and go to my profile page....than down a bit on the right side is my album....click on that. I just entered my first fill photo........showing my tattoo and the little bruise I got.... Ok, ok the fat pictures are there too so please be kind.......LOL!! I would like to see some albums people!! Hint, hint!!

I got my first fill today. OMG I have some restriction. Feels like to much but I know it will loosen up in a couple of days.....I can drink Water but so not hungry and afraid I will throw up if I eat........... But I think now is when I really start playing the lap band game!!

Hey Candy I think everyone is here......just since I left this morning there are two more pages. Candy I was exactly where you are and frustrated earlier today. I have had my days when I wished I did RNY....not really but ya know.......I started to think lap band WON'T work for me and that I am not gonna be able to do this.... Today helped. HOnestly I think I am too tight right now but I know in a couple of day it will loosen up. NOw I have some hope cause I think this is what I am suppose to feel.....I am so, so not hungry and I have only eaten a yoghurt and and some cheese and some tofu yesterday.......I haven't eaten today at all and I can't I am to tight and crampy right now. I can still drink Water so I am ok. But it is that achy like after surgery when I could so feel the band right in my chest.......I feel it again lots of pressure in there......not hurting but I know exactly where the band is........ I did bruise from the fill. I posted a picture. But no serious damage. So Candy it gets better..........you could call and ask to come on the 25th but than you would have to wait longer. Dr. Baggs told me the 25th is overfull and to plan on waiting around awhile for everyone to be seen...........so I don't know if they will change dates........my guess is with your lack of restriction your gonna want the first fill you can get...........

Oh after my fill I went back to joke around with the last lady- who also was having her first fille- that it was no big deal!! Well Dr. Baggs overheard and probably thought I was crazy!! He told me, "you should have have limped in there or gone in with a crutch and told her it was really painful than just walked out!!" He seriously is a funny guy I told him I would do that next time and to make sure there was a newbie behind me!! LOL. He laughed but see he doesn't know me I just might.......... I also went in with my measuring tape belt but I had to remove it for the fill............I had to explain to him what it was!! LOL. He told me I was the only stressing over the 10 pounds...........and said to put my belt away for good!! LOL. But who knows maybe Riley you could wear it next time??? And I didn't laugh about youtube I held it all in!! Robin also mentioned the youtube said everyone has seen it!! Robin was asked about being overweight and having surgery. She said she was overweight but won't respond to the surgery issue. She blushed and said she was always the fat sister growing up............. oh girls I am so feeling the band and there is alot of pressure in there. I need to lay down and get some sleep. I got up at 5am to get to Kaiser in time.......... Anyone want to carpool on the 25th?

Candy I so, so, so felt that way until today................I am tight now. But it was hard not to "mess up" since I really could get anything down.................. I don't know how long the tight feeling will last. I do know I drank water on the way home and I just feel the restriction. Dr. Baggs said this fill likely won't do much for me.............maybe not even the next one. I am guessing in a day or two the tightness will wear off. But so not hungrly right now and I was so worried about weigh in today that I barely ate yesterday.......... But it is that time of the month and I am getting a nasty sinus infection and my head has been pounding all day........I almost didn't go today but figured I would tough it out. ON the way home I stoppedin fairfield to walk around the mall and really was so light headed I and dizzy I decided to just go home................... Going to be early tonight. Oh weird thing is that when he put in the fluid I felt it tighten.........didn't hurt but I could feel it inflate......weird!! Half my class was sacramento people I invited them to lap band and Kaiser group.......... some of them were so not interested and were sorta rude.............but ok I just assume everyone wants to hang out with us!! LOL. I think a couple people might show up on our forum!! Sheena good to hear from you!! Glad your doing ok!!

The only band thing about the group was this one negetive lady who talked way to much and thought she knew it all. She has been gaining her weight back and argued with Robin............luckily she got called out early!! We did talk ALOT about snacking and head hunger which I liked. Oh we had to fill out a questionaire to that went to Dr. Baggs after it was done..............checking to see if we are following the rules...........if we are messing up how how often and in what area......... Oh so I am gonna be at the June 25th group fill ladies!! Go figure. I told Dr. Baggs I already got the day off work and he looked confused and told me "oh that's right you have inside informers"...................we are so gonna have fun that day!! Maybe we should go somewhere afterwards...............

LOL. I so did NOT get lost. You run right into it when you get off the freeway...... Riley highway 37 was closed today I thought of your when I went past it. Ok so I got the first group fill today. I had no idea it was a group fill day but here is how it went........I got there at 8:30 got check in and noticed the whole lobby was full of bansters so it was fun to visit...........than at 9am they started to call people back one at a time to weigh than on to the nutrition class/Support group..........that was just Robin with about 12 of us and it was more of a support groups ask any questions check in with people meeting.............they strarted to call people out one at a time for the fill next door.........one you got the fill you could either come back or leave........I did not get called until almost last about 11:45 or so.............It was ok just a long day. Ok the fill went fine. He did tell me he watched the youtube video and that he didn't like that it was a first fill and he had to dig for the port.......he said he wasn't sure how he felt about being on youtube. I told him it was good for me to see it so that I knew what to expect:-) I was joking around that I did n't have a video and he asked if was gonna blog about the fill!! LOL I said no I don't have the time............. I did show him the picture of all of us at the resterant and let him keep it. He said he thinks it is a good thing we all stay in contact. BUt my printer was out of ink so all he got was black and white so someone needs to print out a color one....... No one on one with Robin. No food log I stressed for nothing. Groups meetings and nutrions class from here on out. Pretty fun really!! I told him the next one is gonna be alot of Sacramento people and could turn into a party and he laughed!! He said he heard about us all!! So I had 3cc's. Got 2 more. I am very tight and achy right now. I can feel the band again like after surgery sorta uncomfortable but not painful. Just I know the band is there again........The port hurts.....not when I got the shot but now the whole area is sore again. He said I have alot of scar tissue and I am still swollen but it will go down......The port is SO NOT where I thought it was!! Ok so on Kaiser scale I am 10 pounds down. No one said anything so I aske Dr. Baggs about it and he said it was a good weight loss. He said my job was to be healing and workiing on eliminating all the fluids they pumped into me at surgery........he said I was not expected to lose anything so what I did lose was great...........he said to remember this was a marathan not a race and to slow down and not expect quick weight loss........slow and steady. So all that stress for nothing............. So anyway I am achy and getting sick I think. Not sure if this that time of the month, that I am getting sinus infection or that I am just achy from the band............but it is quite tight and it feels like it did again after surgery.............so not hungry now I don't want to eat I think I would throw up........... I am gonna move this over to the group site since it looks like everyone moved over there today....

Ok ladies back down to 216 this morning. My weight is just all over. I am guessing at Kaiser I will be up 2-3 pounds on that scale. But all that water yesterday did some good....... Leaving for Kaiser in a few minutes here. I so can't wait until SAcramento fills. I am guessing that traffice is gonna be bad on a weekday morning going across the bridge so I am leavning an hour 1/2 early just to make sure..........and this is a new location so I don't want to get lost. Wish me luck back to Kaiser I go again.........

NIcole you will have fun!!! Enjoy it and take pictures. Sounds wonderful!! Yep that is three for me but the last one only lasted three days stopped for three days than back again!! Seriously I need to see my PCP because this HAS got to stop.............I am so NOT having any more babies!! But I do think my body is trying to say something to me!! But I wish it would stop cause I am so not listening. Ok so your constantly shaving too. So that is a normal thing!! When I was pregnant this happened too so I really thing it is a hormone thing from the surgery and anesthesia. I also still am bruising really easy and have big bruises on my legs and arms just from my cat stepping on me. Heparin I guess just finishing up its job............... 6 weeks monday so I should be moving out to total recovery now..................

Ah great I had a my monthly visitor again tonight.............ah I have to weigh tomorrow at Kaiser how much does that totally suck!! Rotten luck............something is whacked with my hormones............here we go again!! So much for hoping to be back down to 216 now...........no wonder I have been so up and down all day with myweight. Also, Anyone else having to shave their legs like every other day?? This is so crazy you would think I have not shaved for days and it is only yesterday.............does this have to do with hormones too. Seriously I have to talk to Dr. Baggs what did he do to me!! I am a walking hormone right now..............and apparently have been for the last six weeks!!

But I also went down two sizes...........go figure. I was banded April 13, 2009.