jessk0560

Hi Everyone- I just made this account in the hopes for some comfort from people who have been here before. I am on day 9 of my pre-op diet which is only shakes per my doctor. I have been following this strictly but it has obviously been hard. I don't want to get out of bed, I can cry at the drop of a hat and I am just plain hungry and sad. I have a toddler and I am not feeling like a great mom right now because I Just have no energy. I feel like I am constantly thinking about the fact that I could die during this surgery and I am mourning my relationship with food that my family is having but I can not. Being that I have a toddler I have to make food for her, she is not self sufficient so I am around it but can't have any of it. The shakes don't satisfy me. I can't have anything else except water. I slept like 16 hours yesterday and can barely get the energy to get up. Is this normal? I want this surgery SO bad. I have been waiting 8 months to have it. I have done everything I'm supposed to and I want to have this so I can be a better and more active mom for my kid but I just don't know how to shake this horrible feeling inside. I feel seriously depressed and I've never felt like this before. I don't feel suicidal I feel the opposite, like I am just going to do this and die and leave my kid alone and I also miss being able to eat like my family is. I know this isn't forever with the food stuff and I have already made lifestyle changes and feel prepared, it's like I just want a bite of chicken or cottage cheese, something to give me some energy. Please tell me I am not alone in this depression. I have googled trying to find forums that explain what I am going through without having to put something up myself for fear of judgement but I just haven't found anything that has given me the comfort I am seeking that it does get better. I had a lap band before so I've been through this (it was removed 6 months post op due to faulty device) but I also didn't have a child at the time and I think I'm just full with worry. Please tell me this has happened to other people and you've come out okay? I also already take anxiety medicine so if you're reading this thinking this lady is nuts and needs meds, I already have them :-(

I'm sure you are not alone. I'm only on day 2 but my diet isnt similar. After seeing more and more of the variety of diets I still can't wrap my head around why some do the strict liquid diets but I'm also not a doctor. I wish I could offer more support there. Your feelings are 100% valid in everything your feeling. Is there a way you are able to maybe separate from your family for a few days so maybe the temptations aren't right in front of you? As a single mom, this is definitely a challenge for me so I totally get not being able to. What are the liquids youre drinking? did they tell you exactly what you should have?
You're so close to surgery day! Hang in there, we're all rooting for you!

Hi Everyone- I just made this account in the hopes for some comfort from people who have been here before. I am on day 9 of my pre-op diet which is only shakes per my doctor. I have been following this strictly but it has obviously been hard. I don't want to get out of bed, I can cry at the drop of a hat and I am just plain hungry and sad. I have a toddler and I am not feeling like a great mom right now because I Just have no energy. I feel like I am constantly thinking about the fact that I could die during this surgery and I am mourning my relationship with food that my family is having but I can not. Being that I have a toddler I have to make food for her, she is not self sufficient so I am around it but can't have any of it. The shakes don't satisfy me. I can't have anything else except water. I slept like 16 hours yesterday and can barely get the energy to get up. Is this normal? I want this surgery SO bad. I have been waiting 8 months to have it. I have done everything I'm supposed to and I want to have this so I can be a better and more active mom for my kid but I just don't know how to shake this horrible feeling inside. I feel seriously depressed and I've never felt like this before. I don't feel suicidal I feel the opposite, like I am just going to do this and die and leave my kid alone and I also miss being able to eat like my family is. I know this isn't forever with the food stuff and I have already made lifestyle changes and feel prepared, it's like I just want a bite of chicken or cottage cheese, something to give me some energy. Please tell me I am not alone in this depression. I have googled trying to find forums that explain what I am going through without having to put something up myself for fear of judgement but I just haven't found anything that has given me the comfort I am seeking that it does get better. I had a lap band before so I've been through this (it was removed 6 months post op due to faulty device) but I also didn't have a child at the time and I think I'm just full with worry. Please tell me this has happened to other people and you've come out okay? I also already take anxiety medicine so if you're reading this thinking this lady is nuts and needs meds, I already have them :-(

Thank you both for the replies. I have tried to separate myself from my family when they eat but it always seems to end up that I need to make my kiddos food bc her dad is still working, which I can't fault him for that, I know life can't stop because of me. Saturday we went to a catered BBQ birthday party. Having just a bottle of water there was not fun. But I did it. I know I can do it, but gosh this is hard. We are going on a family vacation leaving Thursday (horrible timing but I was supposed to get this done in June but had insurance issues and we already had the trip scheduled thinking I'd be post-op and ready to travel) so I just feel like I need to get out of this funk before I come home on Sunday and pack for the hospital, or more importantly so I don't ruin my families time. I don't want to end up freaking out on the operating table either ?
Thank you for the support. I'm just a hot mess I suppose ?

I was pretty miserable during my pre-op diet, I remember sitting on my couch holding my head because it felt like I had a migraine from the hunger and weakness, but it was all worth it in the end. Just think forward a few days to the surgery and beyond, and even though there will be restrictions at first you'll be able to eat real food again (even though you really won't be hungry), and all of the good things and health benefits that will be coming your way very soon.