Girl, I feel you. My story was kinda different i was the small girl 125-130, then i got on the depo gained 200 lbs, i have been trying since 1996 to lose it never did so i decided i was going to be fat. My husband started cheating on me, i went to prison and got my life back, but i was still fat so i dealt with self-esteem from being that size 6-8 to being a 22-24. I decided to get banded in March of 07 I was 250 lbs i am now down to 205 and found a wonderful man!!!! I am getting married in 10 days but i went up in age he is 46 ( i am 34)and is the best thing other than my children to ever happen to me! So believe me it gets greater later!