Natascha

I just need a super-quick vent. Nobody IRL knows about my surgery and I’m having a ROUGH day today.

I’m 15 days post op, and while I had a remarkably easy time with surgery and in the first few days, I’ve been stalled since day 5. I even *gained* a lb or two. And while I know that isn’t “real” weight. It’s still incredibly disheartening.
I’ve been so careful to follow my plan. I’m tracking everything, I’m making my water & protein goals, and I’ve been avoiding hitting the scales every day.
Yesterday my hunger came roaring back to life.
I feel like I’m working so hard, and getting nowhere. And there’s a mean voice in the back of my head saying “you spent $19,000, and rearranged your guts for THIS?”.
I know this will probably pass, but I’m cranky that I won’t get the epic first month of drastic losing that other folks seem to get.

I’m not really looking for sympathy or advice just letting off some steam!