I am a mid forties mom and teacher. I have been blessed with so many food things in life--a wonderful family (even the in-laws are great!). I have a job I love, and I am in a great place in life. However, my weight has increased by about 100 pounds in the past 6 years. Previously, I have dieted when in new or stressful situations, which has less to a decreased metabolism and increased "set weight" (in my non-medical opinion),
I used to work out, swim, run, and I was a force to be reckoned with. My nick name was She-ra. When I switched from an active career to a sedentary and more mentally and emotionally stressful one (teaching!), my weight started to fluctuate. I initially had panic attacks and managed my stress by not eating. However, at some point, a switch went off, and I could no longer keep up the weight loss vigilance. I began "treating" (soothing) myself with sweets. Because I have plantar fasciitis, which is aggravated by higher impact activities, I found it easier to just not do. Currently, being on my feet for any amount of time comes with a cost of inevitable pain and soreness later.
Getting all this extra weight off is important because I find it harder and harder to the things that I love, such as gardening, and being outdoors. I have always been either gaining or losing, so clothes (and I HATE shopping) have always ben something I had to purchase because I always grown out of things. It is getting harder to find clothes I like because of my size. I know people respect me less due to the combination of my increasing age, and weight (and people shouldn't be that way, but they are). Due to an unexpected windfall, I am able to undergo bariatric surgery to knock the weight off. My insurance does not cover surgery.
It has been a considerable mental and emotional journey, to let go of my desperate and irrational clinging to certain foods and excuses for why I eat and refuse to try to lose weight. The acceptance that I need to make lifelong changes was not initially one that I wanted to attempt or believed I could undergo. But because of support from wonderful friends and family, I am able to do this, and not be alone.
However, even with all the support that I have, no one in my life is overweight to the extent that I am. There are challenges they can't possibly understand, and struggles that they aren't even aware that I will be going through because of the surgery. I have been turning to this forum to give and get support.
And I am a big Bill Murray fan. And I love standup comedy.
Height: 5 feet 4 inches
Starting Weight: 255 lbs
Weight on Day of Surgery:
Current Weight: 240 lbs
Goal Weight: 160 lbs
Weight Lost: 15 lbs
Surgery: Gastric Sleeve
Surgery Status: Pre Surgery
First Dr. Visit: 02/24/2021
Hospital Stay: n/a
Surgery Funding: Self Paid
Insurance Outcome: n/a