TxWild

Hi Everyone, I'm new here but a short bio. I was always overweight. Weighed nearly 400lbs by 21, lost down to 225, but maintained around 245-255 through diet and exercise. Met my husband, adopted his bad habits, got pregnant, gained, poof, back up to 350. Had the sleeve, down to 195. Woohoo! Then life, covid, etc. I'm back up to 235. Here's my question. I definately feel motivated to lose at lease 30lbs. I won't have clothes that fit if I can't get back down to about 205 and I'll be embarassed to go to work. My doctor thinks I should aim for 165. I think 175-185 is more reasonable, but regardless I'm not sure that I can motivate myself to lose more than the 30lbs. When I was 350-400lbs I hated myself. I was so motivated to be anyone but me. Now I look in the mirror and sure it might be nice to be a size 6, but I don't hate myself. I'm successful, likable, have a lot more self esteem. I am finding it very difficult to motivate myself to lost the 60lbs I really want to lose. How do I motivate myself to not just lose 30lbs, but to really crush it? Thanks!