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JJ the whole next year will feel surreal.You didnt say how much you have to loose but if you are anything like me you will watch those lbs fall away. Exercise dont get lazy, and try not to eat when you know darn well youre not hungry. Good Luck and God's Speed. My life feels so altered in so many good ways

Well some of it was physiological and some of the reasons were psychological. I changed jobs 12 years ago and just stopped moving. I went from the computer to my easle, and from my easle to my bed. Even though I wasn't moving much at all I was still getting hungry and still eating what I loved at age 16, junk food. So I got fat, then fat became all I could remember being. I dont think its so deep or profound really. We all like the known and man dont we know fat !? So soon soon soon we shall know thin! Amen, let the church say Amen !

Well therapy or no, I'm not carrying this weight another year. I would have never imagined that I would have done this well in a year. Hey guys , just one more year and Im there for sure. If after that I still need a shrink then hell I'll find one ! just cause Im sad for the old Bermy ( Ive known her so long, kept her secrets, and kept her company), dosent mean Im not happy to meet the new one . I want to go shopping with her and I even want to get over the excitment and become so accustomed to the slim one that I dont think about weight any more! Ahhhhh now thats a thought !

Amen Ret ! And may the Force be with you !

LISA Ive had about 4 fills now and this is the first time Ive had that growl sort of strange sound lol coming from my throat ! If I take a deep breath sometimes it happens. Ive been trying to see if I can control it and make it happen at will, but no, so I dont supose I can demonstrate it for the DOc,but dang its very strange isnt it?!

Thank you Vineswoman and Photonut, "Each in His Own Way" is presently on exhibit at the Bermuda National Gallery until September, just in case you're in town ! LOL

Youre gonna be just fine Warmmoring sun. And youre going to embark on a journey of a lifetime, better than any vacation...with every pound you loose you will feel beter and beter. You wont fail after surgery. I wondered about that too. I remember thinking "supose I'm one of those who dosent loose" but you will. Good luck to you !

Thank you for your gracious compliments. Feel free to visit my site www.sharonwilsonart.com there are both open edition and limited editions there

Well I was enjoying loosing and i still am. What I wasnt ready for was this sudden sense of loosing all I can remember. I do believe that Im a little disappointed in myself for this VERY STRANGE emotion. Imagine in another year I will have adjusted Im sure and then I shall become and look like all the other people. I will be the only one who will remember that I was fat. I wont be "fighting against" fat or attitudes and such anymore. NOW THAT WILL BE STRANGE ! I like the way I look. There is not even as much loose skin as I envisioned .....but liking the way I look is not the same as knowing how to be normal with it. I think I even feel sad for all the years......melancholy perhaps is a better word....or maybe not. But I sat there not really believing that even though I can loose 20 or 30 more lbs, I know I look good now so in many ways this IS the end of one road and the begining of another. This one was so much more painful then even I knew. Thats what all these feelings are all about. They are about letting it all go, and realizing just how much that fat bothered me. You all never "saw" yourselves as fat huh? well I was trying to be a better artist better everything else just to compensate for the fat and now I dont have to anymore. Can you see how thaqt might leave a person feeling very strange...... and excited, but right now just very quiet and reflective Soon fat thoughts will have to give way to more important stuff... I once heard Sogyal Rinpoche say that we live many life-times in one life time, you know what? I believe it

All the best to you . You'll be fine just focus on why you're doing it. You are about to embark on a new and exciting adventure. I wish you all I wish myself. Come back and tell us all about it. I remember how I felt I went to Switzerland from Bermuda. I was so excited I didnt have room for doubt ! Best, Bermy

Evening Concert - pastel on paper 2005 Sharon Wilson August In Bermuda pastel on paper Sharon Wilson

How much do you want to loose Rett?

Well Good Luck to You Rett and welcome to the world of normal weight ! Kiss the Pepsi's goodbye ! not for a long time but forever ! None of it really matters, you are about to enter a very interesting journey. I wish you God's speed, safe journey... keep us in touch

Well its been a year and still most mornings nothing stays down... geez It seems like I should be skiny by now considering what I can't tolerate any more.. chips, corncurls,muffins, cake, cornbread,any bread !, rice, pasta sometimes, all meats, pancakes, most fruit... but I am missing one or two molars and that might account for the difficulty. I lived for quite a few months on good old fashioned soups. I made lots of them, pureed them and had a cup whenever I was hungry. And you know I think that was perhaps a very healthy thing. Having said I cant eat pasta, I did have some today with no problem. Its all very odd, but Ive learned to just go with the flow. I do find it stressful when I go out to dinner though. I dont know what it is but I always have problems when I'm out with others eating. I want a drink but I know that will mess me up with eating.... I try not to eat too fast but I always have to visit the bathroom at least once, but now that I think of it I think that often when I'm out to dinner I am not necessarily hungry but I still eat. You make a date for dinner at 7pm but yr not really hungry but geez that never stopped me before lol ........ I used to want food as soon as I smelled it, and part of me still does. So I try not to make dinner dates. If im near a restaurant when Im hungry , fine I'll go in but otherwise Im not bothering at least thats how I feel now.

Yeah Angie that greasy food can definately do it !