New2Me2020

Hi everybody! I hope that you are all staying healthy and well right now. I am totally new to this forum and have been reading things all day. I recently reached out to my Dr. For referral after a very scary incident that almost took my life, it was weight related. For years I have been terrified about the surgery because of some general surgery fears but for the most part because I was told it was the "cheaters route" or the "easy way out". I felt judged and condemned and unfortunately allowed myself to succumb to these beliefs. During that time I went from a heavy 245 to a very large life threatening 425. I guess my burning question is, is it okay to be scared? As much as I tell myself I'm not and I give myself this big pep talk, I am still nervous. What if I still want to use food to cope, what if I fail, what if I die? I don't write these questions to be judged but maybe to get some wisdom from someone who has conquered these fears? I have my first appointment with psych on Friday and as nervous as I am, I am still excited. A few other questions: Is it worth it/ do you regret it? Do you feel like your life is normal? Can you do it with 50/50 support from those around you? Do you have to lose weight first? Is the loose skin as bad as people make it out to be? Hair loss? Tips? ~Thank you all for your love and support!!! Also how do I update my profile? CW, surgery date, type, etc.?