cwmom98

Thank you ladies for your responses. I didn't know that there were forums here for specific states so I'll search that out. I used to track my food intake but I guess I just got side-tracked with all the other health stuff I've had to deal with lately. As for fills, I saw my surgeon a couple weeks ago & he removed .2cc because I was having severe problems with food getting stuck followed by foamy vomiting (sorry to be so graphic). As for portions, I was originally told to eat until I felt "comfortably full." Well, that turned out to be a lot more than I expected so I backed off of that idea. I do take a minimum of 30 minutes to eat & I chew my food like crazy, but still it was getting stuck. I see him again next month & I suspect we'll have a lot to talk about. While I'm still having a cruddy day, I think I'll just allow it for today only. Tomorrow's a whole new day with lots of opportunities. I'm going to go spend time with my daughter, newly graduated son-in-law, & my 2 grandsons, as well as my sons. I wish you all a very happy Mother's Day!!!

Hi all. My name is Ann & I live in VA. I had wls July 2007. I weighed 246 on the day of surgery. Yesterday I weighed 213...today 215...2 months ago I was 205! Since my surgery I have been going this all alone. I've been a member of another wl forum & as much as I have grown attached & fond of those members, I am the lone bander in a sea of bypassers. I am so frustrated & dissappointed & am beginning to wish I'd never had this surgery. I don't know what I'm doing wrong & feel I should have at least be below 200 by now. I have the usual comoridities such as type 2 diabetes & high cholesterol but my biggest concern, aside from my weight, is I have a very weak heart. Those of you in the medical profession will understand an ejection fraction of only 20%. I just had my 4th defib/pacer implanted a few weeks ago. It is because of my heart that I HAVE to get this weight off. My quality of life was plummeting quickly to the point that I began making my funeral plans & deciding to whom I wanted my things to be distributed to. Since the surgery & now the new ICD, I am feeling better physically...at least I'm upwardly mobile...but I still have a long ways to go. I chose to go to a surgeon that is a bit of a distance away for safety's sake...I don't trust the local group... but because of gas prices & the distance I am just not able to drive there often for support groups, etc. So, as I said before, I've been flying solo. I called my surgeon's office this morning, after a small crying jag, & told them how I was feeling. I have an appt with the Nut. & my surgeon on the same day but that won't be until June 11th. Folks, I have yet to meet with, speak to, or even see ANYONE that has had success with this tool. I'm feeling very alone & vulnerable & such a failure. I am hanging my heart out on my sleeve in hopes that ya'll can help me along on this journey. I am no quiter...I'm a fighter...but everyone has their limits & I think I'm nearing mine. Depression doesn't come easy to me but it's rearing it's ugly head at me nearly everyday now & I just plain need help & guidance from someone who's been there, done that. So I am reaching out to you. Can you help? Thanks for letting me vent.